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wannadie
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I don't know where to start. Obviously my presence in here shows that I'm looking for someone to talk to, someone to listen to. Looking to make friends. Just like most of you I found this place by searching on google. I have been reading threads since past few days on this forum. Finally I feel I'm home
It took me a little while to introduce myself. Yeah, I'm a 'little' shy. Kept thinking if I should tell anyone about my life, if anyone will understand me. But then I realized there are many people all around the world just like me. With every person the story changes a little bit, but we all are here for the reason.
Right since my childhood I always knew that there is something different about myself. Every place I have been (school, college, office), it was kind of difficult for me to fit in. Not because I hated anyone, just that, I don't talk much, or rather I can't. Most of the time I don't understand what to say. Not easy for me to express my feelings so I guess people think I'm a snobbish person. The only way people know about 'real me' is by sticking around with me for a while. This is how I lived all my life. Made very few friends. Now all of them are married, have babies, busy doing their own things. Now I'm little over 30, recently got divorced, had no money when I had to leave my X. Somehow managed to find a job within couple of months. Kept myself busy by working like a donkey without complaining. This way I managed not to think about my X or any other problem. I miss him a lot.
Now I feel so tired. I know that I can't go on like this forever. The place where I'm working right now, my boss is a jerk. He has created wrong impression about me in our department by lying and manipulating things. I feel so depressed. I work so hard but I get nothing in return. There are so many beautiful, successful people around me (they are not my friends). Looking at them I feel so sad, low and lonely. I'm left with no self confidence. I feel I'm good for nothing.
About my hobbies, I don't have many.... I like to draw sketches, I like to travel, I listen to music all the time, surf on the internet and now I'm a workaholic, better than being an alcoholic right LOL...
Oh well, I guess I should stop here. More later.... thanks for being so patient with me.
HUGS.
It took me a little while to introduce myself. Yeah, I'm a 'little' shy. Kept thinking if I should tell anyone about my life, if anyone will understand me. But then I realized there are many people all around the world just like me. With every person the story changes a little bit, but we all are here for the reason.
Right since my childhood I always knew that there is something different about myself. Every place I have been (school, college, office), it was kind of difficult for me to fit in. Not because I hated anyone, just that, I don't talk much, or rather I can't. Most of the time I don't understand what to say. Not easy for me to express my feelings so I guess people think I'm a snobbish person. The only way people know about 'real me' is by sticking around with me for a while. This is how I lived all my life. Made very few friends. Now all of them are married, have babies, busy doing their own things. Now I'm little over 30, recently got divorced, had no money when I had to leave my X. Somehow managed to find a job within couple of months. Kept myself busy by working like a donkey without complaining. This way I managed not to think about my X or any other problem. I miss him a lot.
Now I feel so tired. I know that I can't go on like this forever. The place where I'm working right now, my boss is a jerk. He has created wrong impression about me in our department by lying and manipulating things. I feel so depressed. I work so hard but I get nothing in return. There are so many beautiful, successful people around me (they are not my friends). Looking at them I feel so sad, low and lonely. I'm left with no self confidence. I feel I'm good for nothing.
About my hobbies, I don't have many.... I like to draw sketches, I like to travel, I listen to music all the time, surf on the internet and now I'm a workaholic, better than being an alcoholic right LOL...
Oh well, I guess I should stop here. More later.... thanks for being so patient with me.
HUGS.