Lady X
Well-known member
I guess I just need to vent and let off a little steam cause I really feel like crap right now and I cant seem to pick up out of it tonight.
As some of you know, I am stuck in a job that I really hate. It's not really the job itself, its the place and the atmosphere and the stress, especially from some utterly unbearable people there. I genuinely don't know how I can handle that place any longer. I cannot afford to be signed off even though my doctor would want me to for anxiety and depression. Not to mention the effect such a sick record would have on my ability to get another job - so my only way out is to move jobs.
But... I've just sat here, as I do every evening, and looked and looked and looked for other jobs and there just isn't anything that I can do - I'm "over qualified" for basic jobs and under experienced for anything outside the industry I'm in, in which jobs are limited at the moment.
I just feel so trapped in a honeysuckle situation, and I can't see any way out. This place is making me really ill, but the more ill it makes me, the less chance I have of getting a new job. Its a pretty vicious circle I'm stuck in.
What doesn't help today I guess is the total kick in the teeth I got when an old friend text me today to ask me to hang out this weekend. I was pretty chuffed and text back asking when and where... and then heard nothing. I later found out that they text me by accident when going to text someone else. This wasn't someone I was very close to, and I don't know why I'm feeling the way I do but its just like someone ripped my guts out. Made me feel so stupid and embarrassed and I just can't shake off the thought of them, and possibly their friends, laughing at me for thinking they actually wanted to hang out with me.
And now I'm thinking I've just wasted an entire evening and soon it will be time to go to bed, and bed means the next thing I have to look forward to is going back to the soul-drain tomorrow.
Gah.... life, you really suck sometimes!
Rant over. Apologies - I just needed to vent
As some of you know, I am stuck in a job that I really hate. It's not really the job itself, its the place and the atmosphere and the stress, especially from some utterly unbearable people there. I genuinely don't know how I can handle that place any longer. I cannot afford to be signed off even though my doctor would want me to for anxiety and depression. Not to mention the effect such a sick record would have on my ability to get another job - so my only way out is to move jobs.
But... I've just sat here, as I do every evening, and looked and looked and looked for other jobs and there just isn't anything that I can do - I'm "over qualified" for basic jobs and under experienced for anything outside the industry I'm in, in which jobs are limited at the moment.
I just feel so trapped in a honeysuckle situation, and I can't see any way out. This place is making me really ill, but the more ill it makes me, the less chance I have of getting a new job. Its a pretty vicious circle I'm stuck in.
What doesn't help today I guess is the total kick in the teeth I got when an old friend text me today to ask me to hang out this weekend. I was pretty chuffed and text back asking when and where... and then heard nothing. I later found out that they text me by accident when going to text someone else. This wasn't someone I was very close to, and I don't know why I'm feeling the way I do but its just like someone ripped my guts out. Made me feel so stupid and embarrassed and I just can't shake off the thought of them, and possibly their friends, laughing at me for thinking they actually wanted to hang out with me.
And now I'm thinking I've just wasted an entire evening and soon it will be time to go to bed, and bed means the next thing I have to look forward to is going back to the soul-drain tomorrow.
Gah.... life, you really suck sometimes!
Rant over. Apologies - I just needed to vent