I have introduced myself here (new members forum) and I was very happy to get friendly people saying hello, kind of cheering me up. Thank you!!!!
I'd like to share a problem. It's a rant. It's hurting me a lot and I need to vent, because I'm crying inside with it, all the time.
I've recently tried to make friends. I'm not a shy person, so, it worked. But they already knew each other. Again, I was the "new" person. One of their group is a mean person, petty. This person didn't like me. Again and again, this person said unfriendly things to me.
The latest: this person lied about something regarding me. It was a lie, a defamatory lie. I tried to talk to this person, but to no avail. Other people in the group told me they realized what was going on, but that they would not say anything, not to "take sides".
I was so disappointed. So, somebody tells a nasty lie about you, other people know its a lie, but they don't say anything.
Instead of defending myself, I just left the group. I don't need this kind of "friends".
It's hurting. I feel disappointed, let down. Things like this have happened to me before. I stand for "friends", but nobody ever stands for me.
I just needed to talk to someone. Because it's really hurting. A terribly lie was said about me in public, posted on the internet. I can't defend myself, because the people who know it's a lie won't say a word in my defense, and my "enemy" is very popular.
I am so disappointed. I'm feeling kind of sorry for myself. For being stupid, for trying to make friends. I don't know if I'll ever try again... and, yet, I'm here...
I'm so desperate for a friend, for a hug, I feel like walking on the streets and just hugging someone, asking to have a coffee, to chat. But desperate people like me try too hard. People don't like people like me. I'm a social "loser".
I'm losing my identity, because I'm creating friends (writing) for myself. I write books (I have written 3), where I'm the main character. And, in my books, I have friends. I know it's pitiful.
When I'm going about my life, work, etc, in my mind I'm one of the characters of my book, and I talk (in my mind) to myself. I wanna know how is my day, how I'm feeling... it's really pathetic, I know.
I'm losing myself. I'm drifting. I can't explain. I wanna stop, but if I'm not talking to myself, who's gonna talk to me? Who's gonna "care for me"? I'm the only friend I've got. I don't wanna be mad.
I've been to a psychiatrist in the past, with depression. He cured my depression with medicines, but that was it. Therapy didn't help me. He said there is nothing wrong with me. I'm just... lonely...
I realize you all have got problems, so, I thank you very much for your time, for reading my rant.
If I can "pay back", do anything for any one of you, please, just let me know. I've "ranted" on you; you can "rant" on me. :shy:
I'd like to share a problem. It's a rant. It's hurting me a lot and I need to vent, because I'm crying inside with it, all the time.
I've recently tried to make friends. I'm not a shy person, so, it worked. But they already knew each other. Again, I was the "new" person. One of their group is a mean person, petty. This person didn't like me. Again and again, this person said unfriendly things to me.
The latest: this person lied about something regarding me. It was a lie, a defamatory lie. I tried to talk to this person, but to no avail. Other people in the group told me they realized what was going on, but that they would not say anything, not to "take sides".
I was so disappointed. So, somebody tells a nasty lie about you, other people know its a lie, but they don't say anything.
Instead of defending myself, I just left the group. I don't need this kind of "friends".
It's hurting. I feel disappointed, let down. Things like this have happened to me before. I stand for "friends", but nobody ever stands for me.
I just needed to talk to someone. Because it's really hurting. A terribly lie was said about me in public, posted on the internet. I can't defend myself, because the people who know it's a lie won't say a word in my defense, and my "enemy" is very popular.
I am so disappointed. I'm feeling kind of sorry for myself. For being stupid, for trying to make friends. I don't know if I'll ever try again... and, yet, I'm here...
I'm so desperate for a friend, for a hug, I feel like walking on the streets and just hugging someone, asking to have a coffee, to chat. But desperate people like me try too hard. People don't like people like me. I'm a social "loser".
I'm losing my identity, because I'm creating friends (writing) for myself. I write books (I have written 3), where I'm the main character. And, in my books, I have friends. I know it's pitiful.
When I'm going about my life, work, etc, in my mind I'm one of the characters of my book, and I talk (in my mind) to myself. I wanna know how is my day, how I'm feeling... it's really pathetic, I know.
I'm losing myself. I'm drifting. I can't explain. I wanna stop, but if I'm not talking to myself, who's gonna talk to me? Who's gonna "care for me"? I'm the only friend I've got. I don't wanna be mad.
I've been to a psychiatrist in the past, with depression. He cured my depression with medicines, but that was it. Therapy didn't help me. He said there is nothing wrong with me. I'm just... lonely...
I realize you all have got problems, so, I thank you very much for your time, for reading my rant.
If I can "pay back", do anything for any one of you, please, just let me know. I've "ranted" on you; you can "rant" on me. :shy: