confusedandalone
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I have a reallt hard time trusting myself. I have been in a relationship since i was old enough to have one, always put that first rather than constructing a life outside of it and cant imagine being able to go it alone. I am not sure i can go for a career or anything because im not very clever but my parents think i am and are pushing me to go to uni. thing is, i dont want to live in the town they live in as i find it really depressing here and all i want is to make a life with a partner and make a cirlce of friends from there. i am single now and have just moved back with them and i dont think i am able to make it in a new place on my own. I havent found a job i think id love or anything and cant see a way out of their house other than to go to uni but ive ditched it before because im scared of failing and then they'll know for sure im not clever. I am feeling so lonely still and this site helps but its all i do now. i am petrified about the future - i dont think ill make enough money to support myself and i dont want to waste money on something i dont think i can do. i am an only child and i dont want to feel alone foever or live with my parents forever but i dont know what to do. i have no sense of direction and am not good at finding my way around new places. maybe im just lazy i dont know. ive lost so much and have nothing left to drive me on.
what i cant get my head around is if i go to uni, i would hopefully make some friends there but then id have to go wherever the job takes me and then thats 2 fears - being good enough at a job and moving again! dont know what to do.
what i cant get my head around is if i go to uni, i would hopefully make some friends there but then id have to go wherever the job takes me and then thats 2 fears - being good enough at a job and moving again! dont know what to do.