I think I'm going to make it a part of my New Year's "resolution" to get on here more seeing as no one around me can understand nor do I have a lot of people to talk to. I'm just very unhappy and have been for a long time. I do acknowledge things could be worse but truthfully, I'm fed up with feeling like this.
Not going to go into details but to make an extremely long story short, I'm 22 and live with my parents with my 2 year old because her father has been incarcerated since December of 2013 but gets out this upcoming June. I've been very unhappy and lonely since then and recently found out about all the chicks he cheated on me with in the past. He wants to start over but I'm afraid and have already told him I'm willing to try again. I am also on probation and have been since May of 2014. I have 4 months left. It's kinda personal but let's just say I had a panic attack which resulted in my mom cursing me out and me having an anger outburst. My mom called police and I ended up in jail for 6 days over my birthday weekend. She says it was to help me but in all honesty, it only made my life harder than it already was.
Just a few months ago, I lost one of my closest friends. I have still been grieving. I cannot find a job. I've applied everywhere and I qualify for next to no assistance because I have no income, I still live with my parents, and I have this misdemeanor looming over my head until May. Not to mention, I had a lot of mandatory appointments each month with my probation and I can't find one employer here that will work with my schedule, not even freakin' McDonalds or Walmart.
I'm extremely unhappy. I've been trying to get out of this pit but it just seems there's no way out. I start my spring semester in about a week but it's just not enough. I'm trying to stay optimistic that everything will get better but these past couple years have been terrible and I don't even want to keep getting my hopes up.
Not going to go into details but to make an extremely long story short, I'm 22 and live with my parents with my 2 year old because her father has been incarcerated since December of 2013 but gets out this upcoming June. I've been very unhappy and lonely since then and recently found out about all the chicks he cheated on me with in the past. He wants to start over but I'm afraid and have already told him I'm willing to try again. I am also on probation and have been since May of 2014. I have 4 months left. It's kinda personal but let's just say I had a panic attack which resulted in my mom cursing me out and me having an anger outburst. My mom called police and I ended up in jail for 6 days over my birthday weekend. She says it was to help me but in all honesty, it only made my life harder than it already was.
Just a few months ago, I lost one of my closest friends. I have still been grieving. I cannot find a job. I've applied everywhere and I qualify for next to no assistance because I have no income, I still live with my parents, and I have this misdemeanor looming over my head until May. Not to mention, I had a lot of mandatory appointments each month with my probation and I can't find one employer here that will work with my schedule, not even freakin' McDonalds or Walmart.
I'm extremely unhappy. I've been trying to get out of this pit but it just seems there's no way out. I start my spring semester in about a week but it's just not enough. I'm trying to stay optimistic that everything will get better but these past couple years have been terrible and I don't even want to keep getting my hopes up.