Hexamension
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Hello,
Let me first tell something about myself.
I am a 17 year old boy from the Netherlands.
The first 14 years of my life i was bullied a lot and because of that I "Escaped" reality by gaming full-time. I was gaming all day long, school in the morning and after school i was gaming. And twice a week i did athletics, which i am pretty good at. But it was a very special day if i was playing with someone else. I was always alone, but i didn`t care because in the virtual world I had a lot of things to keep me busy. But the biggest advantage of the virtual world is that there are no problems, never someone who is hurting you for whatever reason you can imagine. But after a while (around the age of 11), i started thinking things like: "What am i doing on this world?", "What is my purpose here?" and "For who am i here?". and i came to the conclusion that i was completely useless, so the thoughts of ending it all came fast after that. Luckily i never did that. And those feelings started to leave my mind in the next years.
Somewhere between 14 and 15 something happened (still don`t know what) what caused to see the light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time i had the idea that was useful in this world. That i am here for a reason. So in the past 2 years it kept going better and better with me. I met new people who are very important to me at the moment. And i started doing more then just gaming.
Last year i finished middle school at medium level. But i was able to do the high level, So i started with that 3 months ago. With that I've got Philosophy classes. Here i learned a lot about myself and about life. About 2-3 weeks ago i caught myself being prosperous for the very first time of my life. But the philosophy classes aren't the only reason i am happy now.
I also got into a new class with new people. And there is a girl i like very much, sometimes we have a very small conversation. mostly about my sister (which she knows very well). But those very short conversations makes my whole day, it makes me happy for at least a day or 2. Every time a see her sitting somewhere in the class i just get a smile on my face. I really try get to know her better, but as socially awkward as I am, I just don't know what to do.
But a week ago I got the news that my parents are divorcing. Just when i had a pretty solid life, this comes on my path. It's a lot of trouble that is going on about this. It'makes me feel so sad, but then when I think of "her" I am really happy. It feels like the biggest roller coaster of emotions ever made.
Does anyone has some advice what i can do to get my solid life back? or any tips on how to deal with this kind of situation?
Thanks a lot!
Let me first tell something about myself.
I am a 17 year old boy from the Netherlands.
The first 14 years of my life i was bullied a lot and because of that I "Escaped" reality by gaming full-time. I was gaming all day long, school in the morning and after school i was gaming. And twice a week i did athletics, which i am pretty good at. But it was a very special day if i was playing with someone else. I was always alone, but i didn`t care because in the virtual world I had a lot of things to keep me busy. But the biggest advantage of the virtual world is that there are no problems, never someone who is hurting you for whatever reason you can imagine. But after a while (around the age of 11), i started thinking things like: "What am i doing on this world?", "What is my purpose here?" and "For who am i here?". and i came to the conclusion that i was completely useless, so the thoughts of ending it all came fast after that. Luckily i never did that. And those feelings started to leave my mind in the next years.
Somewhere between 14 and 15 something happened (still don`t know what) what caused to see the light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time i had the idea that was useful in this world. That i am here for a reason. So in the past 2 years it kept going better and better with me. I met new people who are very important to me at the moment. And i started doing more then just gaming.
Last year i finished middle school at medium level. But i was able to do the high level, So i started with that 3 months ago. With that I've got Philosophy classes. Here i learned a lot about myself and about life. About 2-3 weeks ago i caught myself being prosperous for the very first time of my life. But the philosophy classes aren't the only reason i am happy now.
I also got into a new class with new people. And there is a girl i like very much, sometimes we have a very small conversation. mostly about my sister (which she knows very well). But those very short conversations makes my whole day, it makes me happy for at least a day or 2. Every time a see her sitting somewhere in the class i just get a smile on my face. I really try get to know her better, but as socially awkward as I am, I just don't know what to do.
But a week ago I got the news that my parents are divorcing. Just when i had a pretty solid life, this comes on my path. It's a lot of trouble that is going on about this. It'makes me feel so sad, but then when I think of "her" I am really happy. It feels like the biggest roller coaster of emotions ever made.
Does anyone has some advice what i can do to get my solid life back? or any tips on how to deal with this kind of situation?
Thanks a lot!