pancakes_online
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Hi guys,
Long time lurker, first time poster.
I've been a sufferer of lonliness and anxiety for a long time. I'm a twenty-something guy from England.
I go on holiday with my parents each year, it's one of the few escapes I get from these four walls. This time I decided to take a leap of faith and stay behind a couple of days longer. I was going to stay in a cheap hostel but they were booked up, so I booked myself into a plush hotel instead For a few days I took in the sights and things were generally OK, even though I was on my own. I had a few moments which I would desribe as a personal success - I went to restaurants (booking a table for one was slightly embarassing) and I even cold approached a girl. I spent about 15 minutes trying to psyche myself up beforehand.
On the penultimate day though I was overcome with lonliness. Sometimes it just hits me like this and there is no getting away from it. My head drops, and seeing everyone with their partners and friends also compounded the feeling. I'm back home now and the feeling persists. There is no one I can go to with these feelings, so I guess that's why I came here. I often wonder to myself if I will walk the lonely road forever - it has been a very long time. I'm sure many of you can relate to this.
This is something that worries me - will I always be alone wherever I go? My thoughts right now are to do some more travelling and perhaps book into hostels - maybe I will meet people that way? Or maybe I won't. I don't know. I wish I had a friend to take along with me, but past friendships have all ended for reasons I'm still unsure of. I have to fight this battle alone. Sometimes the freedom is empowering, and sometimes I just wish it didn't have to be this way.
Anyway, that's my little success story (of sorts).
Best wishes
Long time lurker, first time poster.
I've been a sufferer of lonliness and anxiety for a long time. I'm a twenty-something guy from England.
I go on holiday with my parents each year, it's one of the few escapes I get from these four walls. This time I decided to take a leap of faith and stay behind a couple of days longer. I was going to stay in a cheap hostel but they were booked up, so I booked myself into a plush hotel instead For a few days I took in the sights and things were generally OK, even though I was on my own. I had a few moments which I would desribe as a personal success - I went to restaurants (booking a table for one was slightly embarassing) and I even cold approached a girl. I spent about 15 minutes trying to psyche myself up beforehand.
On the penultimate day though I was overcome with lonliness. Sometimes it just hits me like this and there is no getting away from it. My head drops, and seeing everyone with their partners and friends also compounded the feeling. I'm back home now and the feeling persists. There is no one I can go to with these feelings, so I guess that's why I came here. I often wonder to myself if I will walk the lonely road forever - it has been a very long time. I'm sure many of you can relate to this.
This is something that worries me - will I always be alone wherever I go? My thoughts right now are to do some more travelling and perhaps book into hostels - maybe I will meet people that way? Or maybe I won't. I don't know. I wish I had a friend to take along with me, but past friendships have all ended for reasons I'm still unsure of. I have to fight this battle alone. Sometimes the freedom is empowering, and sometimes I just wish it didn't have to be this way.
Anyway, that's my little success story (of sorts).
Best wishes