Ooooh you mean besides living?
I don't regret much of anything. All of my past choices make me what I am now, for better or for worse. I can fix my bad traits in the future, but I'd never have my good traits if it weren't for every step I took in the past. Perhaps two things I would take back/do over if I could would be:
- Acknowledging my need for social interaction. It'd be a HUGE step back in my personal growth, but I honestly think I'd be much happier slaving for my family without feeling like I want to be with people. This is because look at me now: independent, but still without a shred of real-life interpersonal relationships. I also wish I'd never made friends online. I would've done better in school if I hadn't. Basically, if I HAD to take back a part of my life, it would be making and wanting friends since the day my sister was born. Now I can't go back to the way I was, and I'm stuck as an awkwardly sheltered socially inept basement dweller (so to speak).
- Realizing my mother's flaws. With some training I bet I could go back to my naive state, but basically I wish I could go back to believing that my mother is the only victim, that my life is only validated by how much I can help her, and that whatever she says is correct. Her disappointment in me would be solely my fault and my only thought would be to change myself. Now that I see she's a psychotic ***** who can't admit to being wrong (in fact, this was just proven less than two minutes ago in a heated conversation with her), I hate her just as much as I love her. That is to say, if she continues to push me one time too many, she'll find either herself or myself beaten brutally and tortured to a bitter death, because I doubt she'll go down easy.
I'm not entirely sure of it, but feel like if I had the power to take back these two changes in me, I would be very, very happy.
However, I do not in the least bit regret these changes because I see them as overall growth.
