DysphoricMuse
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I think this has been the hardest part for me is trying to figure out what exactly I am lonely for....or maybe I'm just bored and lacking stimulation? I know I'm lacking stimulation, my existence AT THE MOMENT is pretty pointless, in that I am not contributing to myself or the society I live in by doing anything productive, I don't have anything to strive or work for right now....But I am making an effort.
This probably sounds incredibly lame....but you know on myspace and facebook people have albums titled "me with friends" and there's all these pics of them out with their friends at clubs, dinner, around town, lounging around the house? I wanna be one of those people too....I want people to WANT to be around me, but not have them be fair weather friends, REAL friends...and not a whole army, but I'd be in heaven if I had at least 6 really good friends, and what do they all have in common? They're all HAPPY and smiling and getting out and doing things in the world. I guess I could understand if I was socially awkward or creepy, and I'm not shy per se, I mean I won't just walk up to a stranger on the street but if one walks up to me I can hold a conversation like any normal person......I wish I was okay with not having friends; I feel like only teenagers and small children should lament over not having friends, like I should be okay with it being me, myself and I....yet here I am...I'm a bit resentful of it all.
This probably sounds incredibly lame....but you know on myspace and facebook people have albums titled "me with friends" and there's all these pics of them out with their friends at clubs, dinner, around town, lounging around the house? I wanna be one of those people too....I want people to WANT to be around me, but not have them be fair weather friends, REAL friends...and not a whole army, but I'd be in heaven if I had at least 6 really good friends, and what do they all have in common? They're all HAPPY and smiling and getting out and doing things in the world. I guess I could understand if I was socially awkward or creepy, and I'm not shy per se, I mean I won't just walk up to a stranger on the street but if one walks up to me I can hold a conversation like any normal person......I wish I was okay with not having friends; I feel like only teenagers and small children should lament over not having friends, like I should be okay with it being me, myself and I....yet here I am...I'm a bit resentful of it all.