onedepressedmom
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Hello! I have had depression for 20 years off and on, but the last 3 years have been the worst of my life. I've been on many different meds that just did not work. I was at my wits end, and finally I decided that it was time to check myself into the hospital. It did no good whatsoever. I was still extremely depressed. I've had about 40 ECT treatment with no luck. I just don't understand "why me"!! I have tried to figure out what I'm doing wrong, but I just don't have the energy and motivation that I've had in the past. I have a husband who has tried to be supportive, but just doesn't "get it" and 3 beautiful children who I love more than life itself. I want to be the mother that they deserve! I feel so guilty for all the things that I've missed or did not do in the past. I cry every time I think about how much of their sweet little lives that I've missed; I'll never get that back. I have spent too much time dwelling on the negative and I need some advice for getting my life back. I need someone that I can talk to who understands what it's like to not be in control of your life and how awful it sucks. Thank You!
Hello! I have had depression for 20 years off and on, but the last 3 years have been the worst of my life. I've been on many different meds that just did not work. I was at my wits end, and finally I decided that it was time to check myself into the hospital. It did no good whatsoever. I was still extremely depressed. I've had about 40 ECT treatment with no luck. I just don't understand "why me"!! I have tried to figure out what I'm doing wrong, but I just don't have the energy and motivation that I've had in the past. I have a husband who has tried to be supportive, but just doesn't "get it" and 3 beautiful children who I love more than life itself. I want to be the mother that they deserve! I feel so guilty for all the things that I've missed or did not do in the past. I cry every time I think about how much of their sweet little lives that I've missed; I'll never get that back. I have spent too much time dwelling on the negative and I need some advice for getting my life back. I need someone that I can talk to who understands what it's like to not be in control of your life and how awful it sucks. Thank You!