Wishtobemyself
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Hi, guys. I'm from Indonesia. Like everyone in this forum, I also feel lonely. Right now I attend colllege. Sometimes I can laugh with my friends, but most of the time I feel that nobody is really connected with me. It feels as if they don't know me as their friend. I wish i was somebody else who are popular, handsome, cool. But the fact is I can't be like that because that's not me. I hardly know the good aspects of myself. I hate myself. Sometimes I look at the mirror and I see my very own ugly face. So hard for me to express my feelings...Most of the times I regret that I grow to be the person I am right now. I have a diary. I wrote all my miserable facts there. I cried when I read it, it so shameful. Sometimes I see a good shirt at a department store, and I said to myself," That nice shirt doesn't fit a someone like me." I wish to be a better person, but it seems very hard for me. (Sorry for my poor english).