DrunkenMonkey
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Snow is falling with no thoughts of letting up. Had dinner with old friends from 15+ years ago. Havent seen many of them in so very long. Was great to see them and they were all so happy.
Im happy for them. They are all married and enjoying this rare weather together. To see them sharing this moment with their significant other made my heart cry. I wanted to shout at the top of my lungs at the emotions i had for their elated atmosphere. So very happy for them.
A snow ball fight insued and everyone laughing with one another. Hands held and kisses to their one and only love, was like watching an old movie. Not being able to bear it any longer, I smiled to them and quietly made my exit.
While i felt joy in my heart for my friends, i felt so utterly sad and alone at that moment i had to leave. All i could think of was her. My Wendy, my love, my unattainable joy.
Oh how i want so much to be with her right now. To share the feelings that i saw in my friends faces. To hold her hand and gently kiss her lips. To inhale her sweet aroma, have her arms around me and taste her tears of joy. To hear her say, "I love you with all my heart."
I look outside and see the beautiful white sheet falling from the sky, listening to Miles Davis, and i wonder... what is she doing right now? Is she already in the arms of another? Does she even wonder what im doing or have any remote feelings for me any longer? Obviously not, and it breaks my heart.
What i would do to have her back. Be able to genuinely smile and know i have someone to love and have love me back unconditionally. She could fix me so quickly, but i know its not a possibility.
My heart grows and grows, but only grows colder.
Why cant she be here right now? In my arms, our warmth and love melding to one. Just wish she was here.
Im happy for them. They are all married and enjoying this rare weather together. To see them sharing this moment with their significant other made my heart cry. I wanted to shout at the top of my lungs at the emotions i had for their elated atmosphere. So very happy for them.
A snow ball fight insued and everyone laughing with one another. Hands held and kisses to their one and only love, was like watching an old movie. Not being able to bear it any longer, I smiled to them and quietly made my exit.
While i felt joy in my heart for my friends, i felt so utterly sad and alone at that moment i had to leave. All i could think of was her. My Wendy, my love, my unattainable joy.
Oh how i want so much to be with her right now. To share the feelings that i saw in my friends faces. To hold her hand and gently kiss her lips. To inhale her sweet aroma, have her arms around me and taste her tears of joy. To hear her say, "I love you with all my heart."
I look outside and see the beautiful white sheet falling from the sky, listening to Miles Davis, and i wonder... what is she doing right now? Is she already in the arms of another? Does she even wonder what im doing or have any remote feelings for me any longer? Obviously not, and it breaks my heart.
What i would do to have her back. Be able to genuinely smile and know i have someone to love and have love me back unconditionally. She could fix me so quickly, but i know its not a possibility.
My heart grows and grows, but only grows colder.
Why cant she be here right now? In my arms, our warmth and love melding to one. Just wish she was here.