rbdataron1983$
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Stumbled apon here constantly looking for counciling . Seems like a lot of ppl are going thru similar things as me here so thought I'd give it a shot. I'm 38 quit drinking yr- yr 1/2 ago and it's like my whole life till that point bombarded my mind. And come to realize my whole life was a matter of fixing other people's circumstances for free and being spit on for it!! Society has basically made the position of a Real Man irrelevant. And in that culture switch my only point of tangible respect in life was thrown off the bridge! You could map the culture switch by my biogeography. I got the full on onslaught from whatever culture switch may have occurred in the past 18-20 yes and ALL IVE BEEN DOING WAS WORKING LIKE MEN ARE SUPPOSED TOO. That wasn't enough to keep the respect of the same family I abandoned my life to keep from going under I could have left when I was on top and let everyone else burn. Instead I kept 4 families rejects n kids till everyone was on their feet enough to leave and they all ruined my name across town!!! I couldn't even walk down the street the first yr. I'm a big n tall black guy but I'm from suburbia and have no issue with that I pride myself on having a hold on the American Dream this is funny to those who have given up on life and are depending on your 100% but too embarrassed to admit it o anyone like they matter. Guess this is the real deal here. I know I'm a Awesome Guy I don't have problems with confidence if anything my Alpha Power and family first cheeks second attitude has been the bread and butter of America has been twisted into a mockery and I'm trying my best to keep my head up High. I gave too much too to many ppl and I'm in Hell for it now. I'm only 38 but I feel n act half my age because I was always kept away from everything all my life too busy working to keep everyone alive now I'm not alive myself