SomeoneSomewhere
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I just want to share this and feel better.
Everyday, I feel like I hate people more and more and this includes everyone I know/don't know. This isn't the kind of hatred that makes me want to go and butcher them with a blunt object but is the kind that makes me never want to see their face again and never wanna talk to them again.
Now the funny thing is, this isn't triggered by any specific incident or anything. I just don't want to be around people.
And then there's this part of me that just fears that people might get to know too much about me. This includes the people who are really close to me, like my mom and my sister. Like just the other day, I was watching a movie with my sister and while talking, I almost told her that the actor in the movie was my favorite actor. But I suddenly stopped myself. I know it makes no sense at all but even giving away something as stupid as that feels like I'm giving away too much about myself.
So I've basically stopped talking to anyone. It has gotten to the point where when I'm supposed to speak, I don't even know what to stay and my tongue almost feels numb. I speak in this weird voice that's not my own.
I try to push people away. I act like a snob towards people for no reason because I've realized that people hate snobs. When the guys from my college try to talk to me, I just act like I didn't even hear them or I ignore them straight away.
I know something's seriously wrong with me. I just wanted to share this with you guys and let a part of it out.
Thanks for listening.
Everyday, I feel like I hate people more and more and this includes everyone I know/don't know. This isn't the kind of hatred that makes me want to go and butcher them with a blunt object but is the kind that makes me never want to see their face again and never wanna talk to them again.
Now the funny thing is, this isn't triggered by any specific incident or anything. I just don't want to be around people.
And then there's this part of me that just fears that people might get to know too much about me. This includes the people who are really close to me, like my mom and my sister. Like just the other day, I was watching a movie with my sister and while talking, I almost told her that the actor in the movie was my favorite actor. But I suddenly stopped myself. I know it makes no sense at all but even giving away something as stupid as that feels like I'm giving away too much about myself.
So I've basically stopped talking to anyone. It has gotten to the point where when I'm supposed to speak, I don't even know what to stay and my tongue almost feels numb. I speak in this weird voice that's not my own.
I try to push people away. I act like a snob towards people for no reason because I've realized that people hate snobs. When the guys from my college try to talk to me, I just act like I didn't even hear them or I ignore them straight away.
I know something's seriously wrong with me. I just wanted to share this with you guys and let a part of it out.
Thanks for listening.