Shine
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hey guys whats up, something happened to me 2day and i just needed to vent...
during summer of 2009 i met this girl from my class and from day 1 i have to say i fell for her. she was everything i looked for in "the one" for me. her eyes, smile, personality, attitude etc. everything about her i loved...i thought that i finally found the girl that i deserved. she had a serious relationship by the time so i knew this wasn't going to happen but still i experienced alot of happiness not only from being with her but also when thinking about her.
we quickly found out that we could trust each other and she would be telling me personal things like how her boyfriend was treating her wrong, the pain she suffered from not having a father, other family issues etc. we truly had a unique bond that i knew she wasn't having with alot of people and it was something new to me since i have never been this close with a girl. and since she is an exchange student from italy and therefore very lonely i felt i needed to be there for her even more.
i noticed that i was caring about her alot. 6 months later her boyfriend broke up with her and she was left with a broken heart. due to my stupid low self esteem i knew this girl wasn't meant for me but nevertheless i was there for her and did my best to take some of her pain away [got her some flowers, movies etc.] she appreciated that and it made me feel good to show my caring for her.
a little later she met a close friend of mine and they were into eachother. well at least, she was into him, he just played around with her. i saw how he did this but couldn't say anything since both of them were my friends and i didn't wanna lose them or look like the jealous type. this was the most intense pain i suffered in my life this far. if i was with him all he was doing was texting her, and when i was with her all she was doing was texting him...very painfull.
i decided that it was best if i would take my distance from her and during the entire summer of 2010 i didn't reach out to her. she called me a dozen times though. when i bumped into my friend he told me she stayed at his place during the weekend. and i was like: owe...ok...did u have fun? later on he told me they had some sexual contact that night.
i was devastated that day, as i said before he just played around with her and told her he wasn't interested in having a relationship with her. he told me he was surprised how easy she was though to get her into the bed. personally i respect women alot and i don't have any bad words about what happened with them, although i don't really like it when girls mess around with guys withouth them being their boyfriends [since i would never do that on my part].
we started talking for a bit again and we were just as good as before, i told her what i felt for her and got hurt again. all this time though i was supporting her emotionally and financially. i want to say that i never expected something from her in the form of a kiss or sex in return and she knew. i did found it strange though that she was always flirting with different guys at the same time. last week a guy from class told me he had sex with her etc. they werent even dating!! he told me he was amazed how easy she was and off course he went to tell alot of other guys from class.
i couldn't believe my ears, all this time she was telling me she wanted to wait for "the one" and how she feels she doesn't need sex now, she told me she went to church alot etc. she just seemed like the sweetest girl ever!!!
now all other guys and girls are quick to say she is a slut etc. and to be honest i think this was really nasty what she did. it hurt alot, she was the first girl in my life that i had a close bond with, the girl that i really dreamed of...the girl that i thought i deserved, because of her i now know what it is to care and maybe even love someone.
i feel like an idiot always having been there for her and always having supported her whenever she needed anything...again: i didn't expect her to sleep with me or anything but still...i feel somewhat betrayed. the girl that i did so much for, is she really a slut? i was amazed by the stories of the other guys how easy she was... i don't know what i want with this post, just needed to vent i guess.
however in all the pain and suffering i find relief hat the girl i really do deserve obviously wasn't her and that hopefully the future will bring the right one for me.
during summer of 2009 i met this girl from my class and from day 1 i have to say i fell for her. she was everything i looked for in "the one" for me. her eyes, smile, personality, attitude etc. everything about her i loved...i thought that i finally found the girl that i deserved. she had a serious relationship by the time so i knew this wasn't going to happen but still i experienced alot of happiness not only from being with her but also when thinking about her.
we quickly found out that we could trust each other and she would be telling me personal things like how her boyfriend was treating her wrong, the pain she suffered from not having a father, other family issues etc. we truly had a unique bond that i knew she wasn't having with alot of people and it was something new to me since i have never been this close with a girl. and since she is an exchange student from italy and therefore very lonely i felt i needed to be there for her even more.
i noticed that i was caring about her alot. 6 months later her boyfriend broke up with her and she was left with a broken heart. due to my stupid low self esteem i knew this girl wasn't meant for me but nevertheless i was there for her and did my best to take some of her pain away [got her some flowers, movies etc.] she appreciated that and it made me feel good to show my caring for her.
a little later she met a close friend of mine and they were into eachother. well at least, she was into him, he just played around with her. i saw how he did this but couldn't say anything since both of them were my friends and i didn't wanna lose them or look like the jealous type. this was the most intense pain i suffered in my life this far. if i was with him all he was doing was texting her, and when i was with her all she was doing was texting him...very painfull.
i decided that it was best if i would take my distance from her and during the entire summer of 2010 i didn't reach out to her. she called me a dozen times though. when i bumped into my friend he told me she stayed at his place during the weekend. and i was like: owe...ok...did u have fun? later on he told me they had some sexual contact that night.
i was devastated that day, as i said before he just played around with her and told her he wasn't interested in having a relationship with her. he told me he was surprised how easy she was though to get her into the bed. personally i respect women alot and i don't have any bad words about what happened with them, although i don't really like it when girls mess around with guys withouth them being their boyfriends [since i would never do that on my part].
we started talking for a bit again and we were just as good as before, i told her what i felt for her and got hurt again. all this time though i was supporting her emotionally and financially. i want to say that i never expected something from her in the form of a kiss or sex in return and she knew. i did found it strange though that she was always flirting with different guys at the same time. last week a guy from class told me he had sex with her etc. they werent even dating!! he told me he was amazed how easy she was and off course he went to tell alot of other guys from class.
i couldn't believe my ears, all this time she was telling me she wanted to wait for "the one" and how she feels she doesn't need sex now, she told me she went to church alot etc. she just seemed like the sweetest girl ever!!!
now all other guys and girls are quick to say she is a slut etc. and to be honest i think this was really nasty what she did. it hurt alot, she was the first girl in my life that i had a close bond with, the girl that i really dreamed of...the girl that i thought i deserved, because of her i now know what it is to care and maybe even love someone.
i feel like an idiot always having been there for her and always having supported her whenever she needed anything...again: i didn't expect her to sleep with me or anything but still...i feel somewhat betrayed. the girl that i did so much for, is she really a slut? i was amazed by the stories of the other guys how easy she was... i don't know what i want with this post, just needed to vent i guess.
however in all the pain and suffering i find relief hat the girl i really do deserve obviously wasn't her and that hopefully the future will bring the right one for me.