To catch you up:
I denied letting anyone new in after a bad break up, because it was a "why bother, it ends the same" feeling.
Then, someone was hired where I worked, who for some reason just HAD to be drawn to me. His friend encouraged him to invite me over to hang out, and instead of saying no (like I always would...) I took a chance and said yes.
What drew me in, is the fact he actually gave a **** to TRY. I didn't communicate well. By well, I mean I didn't. At all. But he made me communicate, and would not give up until I would communicate. It's exactly what I need.
Now? Currently I am pregnant. And for the sake of the child we better as Hell learn how to communicate. It's like it was all a front. He is a great guy, don't get me wrong, but this is the one thing that causes everything to fail - especially for me.
But I would have better luck talking to a wall. I will ask him to do something, and he forgets. Then I have to nag. Blech. Feel like a ***** for nagging! And I doubt he doesn't mind it.
I have a dog currently, which I am going to have to give up. Not because it is her fault, or that I "don't have time" it's because I cannot get through to him about what he should and should not do! His ways can be a bit brutal and won't allow the dog to respect or trust him.
And it sucks to think that I really don't want any of this. Because he suddenly could care less about communicating after trying so hard to actually have me communicate... How is it going to be any different after the kid is here (Early next year)? Am I going to have to do everything myself? Somehow become superhuman?
I'm feeling overwhelmed.
I denied letting anyone new in after a bad break up, because it was a "why bother, it ends the same" feeling.
Then, someone was hired where I worked, who for some reason just HAD to be drawn to me. His friend encouraged him to invite me over to hang out, and instead of saying no (like I always would...) I took a chance and said yes.
What drew me in, is the fact he actually gave a **** to TRY. I didn't communicate well. By well, I mean I didn't. At all. But he made me communicate, and would not give up until I would communicate. It's exactly what I need.
Now? Currently I am pregnant. And for the sake of the child we better as Hell learn how to communicate. It's like it was all a front. He is a great guy, don't get me wrong, but this is the one thing that causes everything to fail - especially for me.
But I would have better luck talking to a wall. I will ask him to do something, and he forgets. Then I have to nag. Blech. Feel like a ***** for nagging! And I doubt he doesn't mind it.
I have a dog currently, which I am going to have to give up. Not because it is her fault, or that I "don't have time" it's because I cannot get through to him about what he should and should not do! His ways can be a bit brutal and won't allow the dog to respect or trust him.
And it sucks to think that I really don't want any of this. Because he suddenly could care less about communicating after trying so hard to actually have me communicate... How is it going to be any different after the kid is here (Early next year)? Am I going to have to do everything myself? Somehow become superhuman?
I'm feeling overwhelmed.