AimeeLou84
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I've just split up with my boyfriend and I am so scared at the moment.I don't have any friends or any family,I feel like I'm unlovable and I feel completely worthless.The worst thing about it is I'd booked a romantic weekend away hoping it could make things a little better between us.
The story is I've been living with my ex for 2 years now and I'm a secret.His friends and family know nothing about me.When he went on holiday for a week I ended up finding out he talked to his ex quite a lot.Sometimes it was up to 15 text messages a day yet he claimed he hated her and had nothing to do with her.Then I found out he had gone to a club,got a girls number and had texted her the same amount of times as his ex.He claims he can't remember her.So both those secrets ruined my trust in him,along with the secrecy thing.
Now six months on I've just found out he's lied to me about girl mates that he has.He told me he didn't talk to them anymore but this one girl he talked to has sent him pictures of herself to his phone and he claims there is nothing in it.He doesn't understand how much that lie destroyed me after everything.Now I know I won't trust him again and he was the only person in the world I had.He's told me he doesn't know what he wants anymore.
So now I am so scared.I took quite a lot of sleeping tablets earlier and they didn't do anything.But I'm just so scared of being completely alone.I have nowhere to go and I'm just feeling so hurt that I was lied to and I have no self esteem left anymore.I'm just in so much pain right now and there's nobody I can talk to or who can be there for me.
Sorry for venting,I just needed to write down how I feel.
The story is I've been living with my ex for 2 years now and I'm a secret.His friends and family know nothing about me.When he went on holiday for a week I ended up finding out he talked to his ex quite a lot.Sometimes it was up to 15 text messages a day yet he claimed he hated her and had nothing to do with her.Then I found out he had gone to a club,got a girls number and had texted her the same amount of times as his ex.He claims he can't remember her.So both those secrets ruined my trust in him,along with the secrecy thing.
Now six months on I've just found out he's lied to me about girl mates that he has.He told me he didn't talk to them anymore but this one girl he talked to has sent him pictures of herself to his phone and he claims there is nothing in it.He doesn't understand how much that lie destroyed me after everything.Now I know I won't trust him again and he was the only person in the world I had.He's told me he doesn't know what he wants anymore.
So now I am so scared.I took quite a lot of sleeping tablets earlier and they didn't do anything.But I'm just so scared of being completely alone.I have nowhere to go and I'm just feeling so hurt that I was lied to and I have no self esteem left anymore.I'm just in so much pain right now and there's nobody I can talk to or who can be there for me.
Sorry for venting,I just needed to write down how I feel.