blumar
Well-known member
Sorry in advance for my venting...
I'm at a bit of a low point. Most aspects of my life just seem to keep beating me down - I feel hit over the head by work, family, and friends. My supervisor embarrassed me in front the team the other day only to find out that she had forgotten our multiple conversations about the direction of a project - this she told me outside the meeting. She avoids me at work even when I ask how I can better help with projects. It's not for lack of being a good employee. I have excellent evaluations, do my work accurately, and on time. I'm friendly with all my coworkers and always help when asked. I feel let down and unwanted (for this example and others). One of my family members has stage IV cancer. It seemed to had stabilized (meaning it was manageable) at the beginning of this year but now another symptom has presented which will result in blindness. Finally, I have lost a friendship of 15 years - we just drifted apart. So, I'm depressed, lonely, and stuck. I have one friend left who I talk to on the phone but no one else. I've tried to meet new people, even tried online dating. But when you are a female on the verge of 40, most men are not interested. Many of them want children and I'm just too old - why try for a 40-ish year old female when a guy can get someone in their mid-thirties. I get it, it just still hurts. So, I'm having a difficult weekend trying to sort out work, family, and keeping the last friend I have.
I'm at a bit of a low point. Most aspects of my life just seem to keep beating me down - I feel hit over the head by work, family, and friends. My supervisor embarrassed me in front the team the other day only to find out that she had forgotten our multiple conversations about the direction of a project - this she told me outside the meeting. She avoids me at work even when I ask how I can better help with projects. It's not for lack of being a good employee. I have excellent evaluations, do my work accurately, and on time. I'm friendly with all my coworkers and always help when asked. I feel let down and unwanted (for this example and others). One of my family members has stage IV cancer. It seemed to had stabilized (meaning it was manageable) at the beginning of this year but now another symptom has presented which will result in blindness. Finally, I have lost a friendship of 15 years - we just drifted apart. So, I'm depressed, lonely, and stuck. I have one friend left who I talk to on the phone but no one else. I've tried to meet new people, even tried online dating. But when you are a female on the verge of 40, most men are not interested. Many of them want children and I'm just too old - why try for a 40-ish year old female when a guy can get someone in their mid-thirties. I get it, it just still hurts. So, I'm having a difficult weekend trying to sort out work, family, and keeping the last friend I have.