The X
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I've determined that one of the biggest sources of negativity in my life is the flicker of hope I keep under lock and key. Every time things turn out the way I know they're going too anyway, it hurts, but that stupid flame won't go out. So, I ask you to douse me. Without going into too much detail or giving any of the hundred messed up reasons for why I am where I am (example: the state of Michigan doesn't seem to think checking the facts on simple cases such as insanity matters, so instead of putting that nugget of info in the right file they just stuck it in mine since I had the same name as the guy. So I was "legally insane" from 2001 till April of last year when I found out totally by accident that this was the case and took steps to fix it. Its funny, cause I was sooo confused about why I couldn't find a **** job anywhere. One background check and BAM! Michigan says I'm insane and heavily medicated...) Anyway, yeah, thats why we're keepin this direct and facts only. I will rant like a madman and I've got a hundred stories thanks to having the worst luck in the world. Right.. so.. to the point.. I know Im a loser, but I don't know how much of a loser I am or how severely my loserdom affects my standing with the opposite sex. No offense guys, but I could really give a **** about what you think of me. LoL Ok ladies, here's the cold hard facts, minus the sob stories that nobody cares about anyway.
Im thirty one years old. I am employed, finally, and make nine dollars an hour. I have two children that I pay child support for, which takes nearly all of my check and ate up all my savings and then some in the years I was unemployed. I bring home three to four hundred dollars a month on average if we get enough business to keep me on the clock. I live with my parents because.. well.. Im freakin broke. Even if I quit smoking, eat ramen noodles every meal, and ride a bike I could never afford rent and utilities. Ever. A raise is out of the question for now and there aren't any other jobs out there. Besides, I have no work history thanks to Michigan. Oh, and I have a car. Yay.
So, how bad is it? Seriously, be honest. Im NOT into one night stands or bullshit relationships at all so if I've got no shot at a real relationship with a girl who has a brain, then I need to know so I can stop pretending otherwise. Lets assume I've got at least average looks and a decent personality because I just want to deal with the numbers. Numbers have become a very important part of this society, unfortunately.
Im thirty one years old. I am employed, finally, and make nine dollars an hour. I have two children that I pay child support for, which takes nearly all of my check and ate up all my savings and then some in the years I was unemployed. I bring home three to four hundred dollars a month on average if we get enough business to keep me on the clock. I live with my parents because.. well.. Im freakin broke. Even if I quit smoking, eat ramen noodles every meal, and ride a bike I could never afford rent and utilities. Ever. A raise is out of the question for now and there aren't any other jobs out there. Besides, I have no work history thanks to Michigan. Oh, and I have a car. Yay.
So, how bad is it? Seriously, be honest. Im NOT into one night stands or bullshit relationships at all so if I've got no shot at a real relationship with a girl who has a brain, then I need to know so I can stop pretending otherwise. Lets assume I've got at least average looks and a decent personality because I just want to deal with the numbers. Numbers have become a very important part of this society, unfortunately.