I never join these things, or post anywhere, or really share anything with anyone. But keeping things bottled up inside me is starting to physically bother me. I'm 19 years old, dropped out of highschool, got my GED, and haven't really done anything else with my life. I live in Maine, which makes me miserable enough as it is, and I just can not take anymore of this life.
I have managed to alienate every single person in my life. My friends, my family, even my own brother. I have nobody to turn to, so I am posting here.
I have never been so unhappy in my life, I can't get a job, I've never had a significant other, I am just so so lonely and isolated. I'm not a bad looking guy, I am gay, and I've had hookup after hookup, but nobody wants more than that. I want more than anything in the world to just move somewhere far far away from all of this, I need to get away. Tonight, one of my "best friends" said this to me "and all you do is push your friends away. you lost everyone. all you have is ********* and she barely sees you as it is", and that broke me.
I don't know how to handle this, I just lay in my bed all day, I don't get invited out anymore, I have to beg even for the slightest bit of attention. I left highschool and my life ended.
I just need someone to care, someone to be there
I have managed to alienate every single person in my life. My friends, my family, even my own brother. I have nobody to turn to, so I am posting here.
I have never been so unhappy in my life, I can't get a job, I've never had a significant other, I am just so so lonely and isolated. I'm not a bad looking guy, I am gay, and I've had hookup after hookup, but nobody wants more than that. I want more than anything in the world to just move somewhere far far away from all of this, I need to get away. Tonight, one of my "best friends" said this to me "and all you do is push your friends away. you lost everyone. all you have is ********* and she barely sees you as it is", and that broke me.
I don't know how to handle this, I just lay in my bed all day, I don't get invited out anymore, I have to beg even for the slightest bit of attention. I left highschool and my life ended.
I just need someone to care, someone to be there