Miriam1966
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Hi ALL friends,
I'm Miriam. I'm 50 years old. I've been in an abusive relationship for the last 5.5 years.
That first sentence took me nearly an hour to type out.
I met the bf in 2013. He is many years younger than I, unemployed, lazy, irresponsible...but very passionate and loving when he wants to be.
I know, I'm a sucker, I'm being used. But he can be so caring and maybe...oh, I'm so lonely...it's rough.
We are living off my disability income, he's on social security (welfare). He told me back in 2014 that if ever I needed him to get a job he would.
I asked him in June 2018 to get a job...he said he was never going to ever work again, even if I needed him to. He said his goal in life was to be a bum on welfare until he was old and grey.
He routinely calls me names, swears at me, makes fun of me and gives me the silent treatment for days. I know he's abusive. Why can't I leave??? (good question)
Our rental lease ends in the spring of 2019 and that is my exit strategy. You see, I pay 95% of our bills with my disability check, and I'm broke... and whereas I was debt-free when I met him, I'm now over 20k in the red. We have 6 pets together. I LOVE my pets. He routinely ignores and neglects them. The brunt of the work and expense is on my shoulders...so I'm kind of stuck here. I refuse to leave my pets to live in a shelter. I've seen him overly aggressive with the pets and I don't trust him with them, so I WON'T leave them behind.
My only hope is to save whatever money I can over the next 6 months, tolerate the abuse, and then rent a trailer, load the pets in and leave. He has told me he will never move out.
Anyway...it's a very lonely place to be. No friends or family...I'm just looking for some positivity.
Thanks,
Miriam
I'm Miriam. I'm 50 years old. I've been in an abusive relationship for the last 5.5 years.
That first sentence took me nearly an hour to type out.
I met the bf in 2013. He is many years younger than I, unemployed, lazy, irresponsible...but very passionate and loving when he wants to be.
I know, I'm a sucker, I'm being used. But he can be so caring and maybe...oh, I'm so lonely...it's rough.
We are living off my disability income, he's on social security (welfare). He told me back in 2014 that if ever I needed him to get a job he would.
I asked him in June 2018 to get a job...he said he was never going to ever work again, even if I needed him to. He said his goal in life was to be a bum on welfare until he was old and grey.
He routinely calls me names, swears at me, makes fun of me and gives me the silent treatment for days. I know he's abusive. Why can't I leave??? (good question)
Our rental lease ends in the spring of 2019 and that is my exit strategy. You see, I pay 95% of our bills with my disability check, and I'm broke... and whereas I was debt-free when I met him, I'm now over 20k in the red. We have 6 pets together. I LOVE my pets. He routinely ignores and neglects them. The brunt of the work and expense is on my shoulders...so I'm kind of stuck here. I refuse to leave my pets to live in a shelter. I've seen him overly aggressive with the pets and I don't trust him with them, so I WON'T leave them behind.
My only hope is to save whatever money I can over the next 6 months, tolerate the abuse, and then rent a trailer, load the pets in and leave. He has told me he will never move out.
Anyway...it's a very lonely place to be. No friends or family...I'm just looking for some positivity.
Thanks,
Miriam