lonelydude
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Like many of you i really dont have any real friends, nor do i have a life outside of school. I try to get by what i can, the few ppl i can talk here and there, but some ppl dont want that to happen either. What do the other ppl at school want from me? im not some kinda arrogant stuck up whom ppl would hate, im just somebody whos really normal and who needs somebody to tlak to . But despite all that i was always optimistic , that things would change, but that is all but diminishing soon.
I recently started taking part in some school activiites and though i didnt gain any friends or anything, i still found them fun and refreshing. But again that wasnt acceptable to some ppl. No matter how hard i worked somebody else was there to take the credit. Now there givin out awards at the end of this school year to ppl who have achieved alot in activites (extra curriculars) and eventhough im not the guy w ith the most impressive resume, i am 10 times more deserving for one of those awards than the ppl who are getting them. And how are they getting them? coz the guy who is organizing all this happens to be their friend. So no place for the deserving , every good thing must happen to those who suck up or are well networked. The same thing happened to me when the school headmaster was selecting the school council from each class. I was a shoo win for a spot on that council since i had MUCH MUCH better grades/ ec's that my competitor , but guess what? i didnt get the spot , WHY? i asked the headmaster and he told me flat out that it was coz i didnt have a dad...Now what the fresia was that? he told me that coz i didnt have a father i couldnt do this , that , etc. Its so ******* unbelieivable but believe it ...
Now i stand here, giving my body and my soul to my work , yet ppl who suck up and are much less deserving get all the credit. This was the only thing i had going good in my life and now im getting that snatched away from me too. I mean WHAT THE fresia DO THOSE PPL WANT?
I feel so much like having my back against the wall, being cornered by those **** ppl who are angry coz i live and breathe and im raising my hands and saying I GIVE UP!!!
i have always been optimistic about my life, i really dont know how long i can be now, i dont have any friends to console me , nor do i have a social network to spend my time doing other things..
I just dont know what to do ,
I recently started taking part in some school activiites and though i didnt gain any friends or anything, i still found them fun and refreshing. But again that wasnt acceptable to some ppl. No matter how hard i worked somebody else was there to take the credit. Now there givin out awards at the end of this school year to ppl who have achieved alot in activites (extra curriculars) and eventhough im not the guy w ith the most impressive resume, i am 10 times more deserving for one of those awards than the ppl who are getting them. And how are they getting them? coz the guy who is organizing all this happens to be their friend. So no place for the deserving , every good thing must happen to those who suck up or are well networked. The same thing happened to me when the school headmaster was selecting the school council from each class. I was a shoo win for a spot on that council since i had MUCH MUCH better grades/ ec's that my competitor , but guess what? i didnt get the spot , WHY? i asked the headmaster and he told me flat out that it was coz i didnt have a dad...Now what the fresia was that? he told me that coz i didnt have a father i couldnt do this , that , etc. Its so ******* unbelieivable but believe it ...
Now i stand here, giving my body and my soul to my work , yet ppl who suck up and are much less deserving get all the credit. This was the only thing i had going good in my life and now im getting that snatched away from me too. I mean WHAT THE fresia DO THOSE PPL WANT?
I feel so much like having my back against the wall, being cornered by those **** ppl who are angry coz i live and breathe and im raising my hands and saying I GIVE UP!!!
i have always been optimistic about my life, i really dont know how long i can be now, i dont have any friends to console me , nor do i have a social network to spend my time doing other things..
I just dont know what to do ,