When I think I have majorly f**ked something up nervousness turns into negative thinking on steriods within a few minutes. I have struggled with thinking too much for a long time now, but it wasnt until this past spring that my negativity evolved into various thoughts occuring simultaneously that I cant keep up with and its a battle with my mind trying to eliminate each f**king thought one at a time, takes several hours or a whole 24 hours... sleep helps but when I am not tired its like I have put myself on a private negative rollercoaster in my head.... I doubt anyone can relate but just needed to vent or rant so apologies if this is just a blah blah read for you all
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