lonelydude
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Hello,
Eventhough im a teenager, and the its currently summer where i live, sometimes i just feel like an 80 year old who lives his own 'cold' and lonely life without much human interaction. All i can do is watch other ppl have fun and enjoy themselves(at school). I wasnt really like this but now i have become so. The reason why i feel like this is because sometimes ppl come to me for help, and you know what , when im done helping them, they not only forget about me , BUT they end up doing something bad to me...This has happened SO MANY times to me , and i feel like an idiot for letting it happen to me so much...but what can i do, im so lonely i need somebody to talk to .. Sorry if i seem to be using up ur time while writing this , i dont really like ranting but i dunno what compelled me to write this. let me elabroate on a few instances.
A few years ago my class got changed and in the new class the kids were already friends with each other so i decided would befriend a few of em. Bad idea coz the first ppl i tried were a bunch of snobs and wanted me to kiss their a** to be friend (like a few other ppl did) ..Anyway i found this guy who was a really nice and i tried to be his friend. I had a whole group of buds outside of the class and we used to have teh best time. I tried to include that guy from my new class in our group. Sounds nice right? well fast forward a year later and now my old group doesnt even talk to me properly now , and theyre all good friends with that guy...I dunno what happened. that guy used to be treated really badly by the other kids in the class coz he wasnt much of an ******* like them. I thought hed be a good friends for all of us , i never did anything bad to him but then that happened.
Before my class got changed this other 'friend' of mine came to me with almost every problem he had, with studies or life. He used to be depressed coz his parents wouldnt give him enough attention and he would vent that and more out with me. I gave him encouragment and support in anything he needed, sometimes even with money and transport and never really asked for anything in return...Fast forward 4 years later its been almost 2 years since he hasnt talked to me , and he even tried to get me in trouble with the teachers on several occasions... A very similar thing happened with another "pal" of mine, and recently i got sick and couldnt attend a week of class and i asked him for his notes for a day and he flat out refused coz he couldnt "trust" me . This person used to call me 4 in the morning (im a very light sleeper) coz he was worried about his exams for like 2 straight years. He even used to get his english work checked by me and discuss stuff about life (like the other guy) but when i asked for some notes of the lecture i had missed , he said NO...
Finally , yet another one of my friend used to come to me for moral support and encouragment . His friends used to push him around and take money and honeysuckle from him. I used to help him how to deal with that , for like a year and a half. And what does he do to say thank you? Spread very very untrue and disturbing rumour about me FOR NO REASON....
I never realll asked anything from anyone...nor do i intend do. But maybe before i help somebody out again, ill ask him NOT to ever talk to me again... At least thats better than getting treated the way i was before... Am i the only person whos been stepped over like this way? ...I feel so bad
Eventhough im a teenager, and the its currently summer where i live, sometimes i just feel like an 80 year old who lives his own 'cold' and lonely life without much human interaction. All i can do is watch other ppl have fun and enjoy themselves(at school). I wasnt really like this but now i have become so. The reason why i feel like this is because sometimes ppl come to me for help, and you know what , when im done helping them, they not only forget about me , BUT they end up doing something bad to me...This has happened SO MANY times to me , and i feel like an idiot for letting it happen to me so much...but what can i do, im so lonely i need somebody to talk to .. Sorry if i seem to be using up ur time while writing this , i dont really like ranting but i dunno what compelled me to write this. let me elabroate on a few instances.
A few years ago my class got changed and in the new class the kids were already friends with each other so i decided would befriend a few of em. Bad idea coz the first ppl i tried were a bunch of snobs and wanted me to kiss their a** to be friend (like a few other ppl did) ..Anyway i found this guy who was a really nice and i tried to be his friend. I had a whole group of buds outside of the class and we used to have teh best time. I tried to include that guy from my new class in our group. Sounds nice right? well fast forward a year later and now my old group doesnt even talk to me properly now , and theyre all good friends with that guy...I dunno what happened. that guy used to be treated really badly by the other kids in the class coz he wasnt much of an ******* like them. I thought hed be a good friends for all of us , i never did anything bad to him but then that happened.
Before my class got changed this other 'friend' of mine came to me with almost every problem he had, with studies or life. He used to be depressed coz his parents wouldnt give him enough attention and he would vent that and more out with me. I gave him encouragment and support in anything he needed, sometimes even with money and transport and never really asked for anything in return...Fast forward 4 years later its been almost 2 years since he hasnt talked to me , and he even tried to get me in trouble with the teachers on several occasions... A very similar thing happened with another "pal" of mine, and recently i got sick and couldnt attend a week of class and i asked him for his notes for a day and he flat out refused coz he couldnt "trust" me . This person used to call me 4 in the morning (im a very light sleeper) coz he was worried about his exams for like 2 straight years. He even used to get his english work checked by me and discuss stuff about life (like the other guy) but when i asked for some notes of the lecture i had missed , he said NO...
Finally , yet another one of my friend used to come to me for moral support and encouragment . His friends used to push him around and take money and honeysuckle from him. I used to help him how to deal with that , for like a year and a half. And what does he do to say thank you? Spread very very untrue and disturbing rumour about me FOR NO REASON....
I never realll asked anything from anyone...nor do i intend do. But maybe before i help somebody out again, ill ask him NOT to ever talk to me again... At least thats better than getting treated the way i was before... Am i the only person whos been stepped over like this way? ...I feel so bad