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I went back to Thailand this past December and am only now getting around to reporting about it. For interested parties, here is what the experience is like: Monday, Dec. 19, 2011, got off the plane at around noon, was at the hotel by 2 pm, went to TV (names of massage places abbreviated, not...

My crisis-point of unhappiness began as I was about to graduate college; it hit me that there would be no more growing up, this was really my life. I had no friends, couldn't make any, had never been on a date, had gone to zero parties, etc. And what hurt the most was knowing that this would...

Sharing how I feel. Perhaps others will recognize parts and can add their own experiences: I’m pretty much always feeling somewhere on the scale from neutral to unbearably bad. I’ll see or encounter something that acts as a trigger, and I can’t predict what it will be. I can come in contact...

I agree! The reason I went so many times in such a short period was that I knew this was all I'd be getting for who-knows-how-long. Towards the end it was becoming a chore! I wish it was decriminalized here, then I would go every once in a while. When having the sex it doesn't seem like it...

Update: I took another trip to Bangkok in December for a longer time, and this time had nine sessions. One was with two women at the same time, although again, the reality did not match the fantasy. Looking through the various replies that have accumulated here, it's obvious that this is a...

Well, these replies are pretty much what I expected. Judgmental, off-topic, based on misconceptions, etc. But I stand by my original assessment. I know what is propelling a lot of the unhappiness on this board, and this would help a lot. For more detail, I went only to licensed "soapy"...

Recently I spent six days in Bangkok and had sex with six women. I missed a day, so I went to two places the next day. Wow, do I feel better. And judging by the postings I read here, a lot of others could benefit from this therapy. I don't know if women have the same experience, but not...

About a month ago I came to a big realization and wonder if other people feel the same, or if I'm unique. Here it is: a large part of why I'm isolated and unhappy is that I can't bear the thought of my mother seeing me happy. It's my way of arguing. She really let me have it when I was a...

Yes, I've paid for sex. My history on this subject is modest, only five times (with six women) over the past ten years, but it has relevance to this board. Maybe some readers will find the story interesting or even relate. The first time, at age 24, was while attending an out-of-state...

I've been thinking a lot about why I stay this way, and have realized a big element is unresolved anger at my mother. I'm trying to fight against her by showing how miserable I am. I know there are people on this board in the same situation, although they my not realize it yet. It goes back...

Being alone is like an addict's drug to me. I hate it completely, but can't stay away. When I'm around people, I can feel my anxiety level rising. The newer the people are, the higher and faster it goes. I want to escape. When I do, and am off by myself, I feel an initial flush of comfort...

Here I am, lonely, miserable and feeling trapped. It feels like things are so bad this is a crisis and things will have to change, but instead the unhappiness goes on year after year. From what I've seen, a lot of the posters here can relate. For me, it's always been like this. As a child I...