the-alchemist
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How do I deal with my anger? Right now I am so ******* angry at my mom. Last night we had an argument on the phone and the thing that irks me isn't the subject of the argument, but the way she behaves when there is conflict.
Whenever I criticize her on her behaviour, all she does is say "OK", "You're right" and that kind of stuff. But she doesn't mean it, she just says it to shut me up and she does not listen to what I'm saying. And it frustrates me to no end because I can't reach out to her, she is like a ******* kid. Whenever I call her out on something she does or did, she always does that. She treats me like I'm some ******* dictator when we argue, she says "What do you want me to do?", but it's so obvious she says that kind of stuff so that I will shut up.
Then she starts to rant "I know that you hate me", "I'm an idiot, I'm a donkey. OK? Are you happy?" Even though I didn't mention any of those things, she keeps putting words in my mouth when we argue.
I just want her to listen to me. She doesn't even say "sorry" for the bad things that she does. All she wants me to do is to shut up and right now, I'm just feeling sad and angry. I keep thinking about her and her frustrating behaviour.
My brother also used to argue with her before he moved out and he got so angry that he threw and broke chairs in sheer rage. In the past I used to wonder why but now I can understand why my older brother used to do that. After the argument I just felt like breaking something, though I didn't.
Right now though, I feel so sad and angry at her and it's eating away at me. I know that if I call my mom to talk about it she won't really listen, she will just want me to shut up. Today I had an appointment with the only friend I have in this country but I cancelled because I was feeling so bad and it's all because of her. I feel right now that I want to hit my mother so bad, I hate her guts. I don't know how to manage my anger, I don't want to suppress it and let it bottle up, but I don't know how to deal with it.
Whenever I criticize her on her behaviour, all she does is say "OK", "You're right" and that kind of stuff. But she doesn't mean it, she just says it to shut me up and she does not listen to what I'm saying. And it frustrates me to no end because I can't reach out to her, she is like a ******* kid. Whenever I call her out on something she does or did, she always does that. She treats me like I'm some ******* dictator when we argue, she says "What do you want me to do?", but it's so obvious she says that kind of stuff so that I will shut up.
Then she starts to rant "I know that you hate me", "I'm an idiot, I'm a donkey. OK? Are you happy?" Even though I didn't mention any of those things, she keeps putting words in my mouth when we argue.
I just want her to listen to me. She doesn't even say "sorry" for the bad things that she does. All she wants me to do is to shut up and right now, I'm just feeling sad and angry. I keep thinking about her and her frustrating behaviour.
My brother also used to argue with her before he moved out and he got so angry that he threw and broke chairs in sheer rage. In the past I used to wonder why but now I can understand why my older brother used to do that. After the argument I just felt like breaking something, though I didn't.
Right now though, I feel so sad and angry at her and it's eating away at me. I know that if I call my mom to talk about it she won't really listen, she will just want me to shut up. Today I had an appointment with the only friend I have in this country but I cancelled because I was feeling so bad and it's all because of her. I feel right now that I want to hit my mother so bad, I hate her guts. I don't know how to manage my anger, I don't want to suppress it and let it bottle up, but I don't know how to deal with it.