RavenRose,
Welcome to the forum. After some time, I hope you begin to get comfortable with all of us.
Regarding your agoraphobia, you have found someone to relate to it and empathize with you.
I was agoraphobic for many years. The longest I didn't leave my home was a total of 8 months.
I don't know if you have ever heard of cognitive therapy. Being agoraphobic I know it is impossible for you to get out to see a therapist right now. In my experience, I read a book someone gave me. My experience with cognitive therapy is this. First, it takes a lot of courage, pushing yourself, and someone you trust that has the time to help you. I started out by clinging to the person, and just going outside on the porch or in front of the house. It was terrifying for me, but I had to force myself because I was sick at missing out on everything. My helper was my Mom, because my husband worked a lot of hours. After doing this for a while, we walked about three houses down and then turned around and came back. After a very long time, I was able to do more things. Eventually, my Mom would stand all the way at the end of the street I lived on, and I was able to walk alone to her.
Now, I still have mild agoraphobia. I go out, but it has to be with someone. I no longer need just my Mom to help.
However, I was able to get to a therapist and a psychiatrist to help me. The medication and help of the therapy changed my life.
I am sorry if none of this helps you. I know I have seen on TV, on shows like Oprah (sp?) unfortunate agoraphobics that are never able to leave their house. I hope you are not one of them.
Anyway, it takes a lot of bravery, and the will to not want to be housebound forever...PM me if you feel that I can be of any help to you.