I have this problem of constantly mentally and emotionally abusing myself (cursing at myself for being an idiot and what not) when I do something stupid, or something that I shouldn’t regret about, but somehow I regret about it anyways. I am way to hard on myself, but I can’t do anything to stop it.
Now everytime I regret about something that I shouldn’t of regret about, I do this to myself. I have the mindset that if I were to pursue an impulse, or an act, anything at all, I have to first think if I might regret it later, and if I do, I will not pursue the impulse. It might keep me from really experiencing the world.
I feel like there is something wrong with me, but at the same time I also feel like I’m just making myself believe this when in reality there might not be any problem with me. I’ve thought of visiting a counselor or psychiatrist, but even acting on that impulse might cause me to have regrets. What kind of regrets? I don’t know. Why would you feel regret you ask? I don’t know, but I just know it will happen. I guess part of me thinks that no ones going to listen to my bullshit or problems in life, when there are greater problems in the world.
Now everytime I regret about something that I shouldn’t of regret about, I do this to myself. I have the mindset that if I were to pursue an impulse, or an act, anything at all, I have to first think if I might regret it later, and if I do, I will not pursue the impulse. It might keep me from really experiencing the world.
I feel like there is something wrong with me, but at the same time I also feel like I’m just making myself believe this when in reality there might not be any problem with me. I’ve thought of visiting a counselor or psychiatrist, but even acting on that impulse might cause me to have regrets. What kind of regrets? I don’t know. Why would you feel regret you ask? I don’t know, but I just know it will happen. I guess part of me thinks that no ones going to listen to my bullshit or problems in life, when there are greater problems in the world.