lonely rhyme

I'm sitting at work and feeling really bad so I spit this out in a few minutes of my time:


I feel so empty
I can see no hope.
The pain I feel
I just can't cope.

I have a house.
I have a car.
I have a job.
Sounds good so far.

But what I miss
I can not buy.
I can not find it.
I sit and sigh.

I want someone
who'd sit and talk
go on a trip
or go for a walk.

I want someone
I can treat so dear.
Someone who's with me
and would hold me near.

I want someone
I can make laugh with glee.
Who'd sit and talk
and would not flee.

Every single day
and every single night
I feel the pain
that is my fright.

To be alone
for the rest of my life.
What's the purpose
when it would all be strife?

That terror alone
could kill a man.
To have no solution.
To have no plan.

I sit and watch
everyone else be so happy.
When I sit alone
my life's just so crappy.

Why do I scare people
and make them run?
Is it my face
that people do shun?

I'm the life of a party
the one that makes people smile.
So why is getting close
to me just so vile?

I just want the answer
should I even be here.
Do I just have no hope.
It is what I do fear.

I just want to scream
But no words do come out.
I just have no energy
to stand, jump, and shout.

People pass by
but they do not say hey.
I've looked Death in the eye
and even he ran away.

I'm stuck in a loop
that spins me around.
It's this never-ending pain
to which I am bound.

Well I keep having hope
that I'll find a way.
To get up each morning
for another lonely day.