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Romantic_Flower
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All goes wrong in my life. Nothing lasts.
I want a friend for i can trust, hang out with, talk, cry with and have fun. I want a girlfriend to be my life-partner, for i can share my life with her, all the moments. I want people to know about my existance.
I want. Yes I want. If i want it means I dont have these things, and I think i will never have. All the "friends" i thought i had, left me.
Yes, I know. If they left me, it's because they weren't my friend.
But that turned me into a great pessimist. I have no faith. I dont even lose my time trying to talk to a girl, because i know that it wont happen, she wont feel interested in me. I like my appearance, so thats not a problem. Same with friends. I gave up of trying to make friends, because people dont give a honeysuckle about me. I'm giving up of everybody, and i'm starting to hate everybody. I'm getting evious. People have friends, girlfriends, people they can talk to. I dont.
Seriously, I dont know what to do. I have a band, we play everywhere, but my bandmates dont give a honeysuckle about this. This band could be a great opportunity for me. Could. But i'm hopeless, pessimistic. All my dreams are in a place called "garbage."
where can I find hope? How can I love myself? What should I do?
I'm lost in this life.
I'm going to a cognitive therapist for over a month. It has been very good. But i dont know... treatments hardly ever help when you are hopeless and pessimistic as I am
I want a friend for i can trust, hang out with, talk, cry with and have fun. I want a girlfriend to be my life-partner, for i can share my life with her, all the moments. I want people to know about my existance.
I want. Yes I want. If i want it means I dont have these things, and I think i will never have. All the "friends" i thought i had, left me.
Yes, I know. If they left me, it's because they weren't my friend.
But that turned me into a great pessimist. I have no faith. I dont even lose my time trying to talk to a girl, because i know that it wont happen, she wont feel interested in me. I like my appearance, so thats not a problem. Same with friends. I gave up of trying to make friends, because people dont give a honeysuckle about me. I'm giving up of everybody, and i'm starting to hate everybody. I'm getting evious. People have friends, girlfriends, people they can talk to. I dont.
Seriously, I dont know what to do. I have a band, we play everywhere, but my bandmates dont give a honeysuckle about this. This band could be a great opportunity for me. Could. But i'm hopeless, pessimistic. All my dreams are in a place called "garbage."
where can I find hope? How can I love myself? What should I do?
I'm lost in this life.
I'm going to a cognitive therapist for over a month. It has been very good. But i dont know... treatments hardly ever help when you are hopeless and pessimistic as I am