When I was a kid I really enjoyed all the holidays, and even though my family is still around, I do not enjoy them as much anymore. I feel out of place, everyone has a significant other, whether or they get along doesn't matter it makes me feel bad that I do not. Also college is on break, so I have nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, and nothing to be prepared for. The commercialism is starting to get to me. Although I am happy for some odd reason nowadays, everyone even people that have never got me anything for Christmas are buying me stuff for it. I always just ask for one thing every Christmas, nothing high priced, because I hate people buying me stuff. I don't understand the reasoning behind everyone making me the focal point this year, and I have told them multiple times I no longer enjoy the holidays. Its like they accepted that as a challenge. I am going to be alone like always the third wheel that people will talk to just to be nice, or because they hate their relationship right now. It will however only remind me that I have no significant other, and emotional am alone. I'm not sure how a bunch of presents will make me happier, or less lonely. I am happy people just lonely, and getting a lot of stuff for Christmas will only make me hate the holidays more.