Well my son is only 2 yrs old so waiting until he turns 18 would mean a lot of miserable years ahead for me. I'm only 23 but we've been together almost 8 years now so we've practically grown up together and just plain been through a lot. Technically we're not married and I could leave him any time I want but I feel guilty every time I try and gather up the courage to do so. I feel responsible for him because he doesn't really have family here. His grandparents who were his legal guardians passed away about 3 years ago, his dad passed away too, and his mom is up in AK. Everytime I tell him I'm leaving him he gives me a guilt trip about how he has nowhere to go and that I'm taking him away from our son. The thing is that I don't know if I even love him anymore. He's cheated on me, made me feel like dirt, comes home at whatever time he pleases, LIES about everything, puts his friends ahead of me, and is slowly becoming an alcoholic. My father was an alcoholic and I vowed I would never be with a man like that, but yet here I am. There's so many things wrong with this relationship, but like I said, I'm worried that no other man would want me because a) I feel I am unattractive and b) I have a child. Yes I know, I should've left his ass a long time ago but I am afraid to be alone.