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Some_Bloke72
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Its recently become very, very clear to me that I'm nothing but a burden (always seemed to fear I was before, but now I know for sure).
Essentially, all most of my biological family (especially my mother) ever talks about is how lazy I am (even know I'm not), how much money is spent on me, how I'm doing nothing with my life (ect) and when I do actually achieve something, its swept under the rug while when I screw up even a small, mild thing it seems to be talked about more than when England won the world cup.
My mother will say things like "I don't mean to be harsh by saying this"
and then she proceeds to be as harsh as possible. Then again, I suppose people say "I'm not racist but..." before saying something really racist.
I can't remember the last time anyone told me they were proud of me, and I can't remember the last time anyone in my biological family (at least the ones I live under the same roof as) told me they loved me. My mother will constantly compare me to my biological "father".
But not as much as my younger sister, who has on multiple occasions confirmed my suspicions. I just didn't realize she was right about me being an absolute burden until now.
This may sound a bit pathetic, but then again I am nothing but a burden so I'm probably just wasting your time.
If I haven't wasted your time (seems unlikely). Where do I go from here?
Essentially, all most of my biological family (especially my mother) ever talks about is how lazy I am (even know I'm not), how much money is spent on me, how I'm doing nothing with my life (ect) and when I do actually achieve something, its swept under the rug while when I screw up even a small, mild thing it seems to be talked about more than when England won the world cup.
My mother will say things like "I don't mean to be harsh by saying this"
and then she proceeds to be as harsh as possible. Then again, I suppose people say "I'm not racist but..." before saying something really racist.
I can't remember the last time anyone told me they were proud of me, and I can't remember the last time anyone in my biological family (at least the ones I live under the same roof as) told me they loved me. My mother will constantly compare me to my biological "father".
But not as much as my younger sister, who has on multiple occasions confirmed my suspicions. I just didn't realize she was right about me being an absolute burden until now.
This may sound a bit pathetic, but then again I am nothing but a burden so I'm probably just wasting your time.
If I haven't wasted your time (seems unlikely). Where do I go from here?