Zak
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All this pain.. Did I deserve all of this? I have no idea what went wrong. I am still trying to figure out and hoping for a way for things to work out. But I know it wont, it just will not. I am just... going to be another step in that long ladder for someone else to climb up. I just don't get it. Maybe I am losing myself. Maybe I shouldn't even have registered here. Selfish people who can't make sacrifices for others, even at-least for the person they care most, are just a pathetic excuse of a living thing. It just makes me wonder, what kind of a world am I living in? Is this reality? Or am I going to just wake up from this nightmare at some point. Things are just going against me and one after another, all my hopes are falling. What does this mean? Something big awaits? All doors are closed. All of them. I don't see any open doors now. Does this mean the end of the line? Or is it a sign that something bigger and better is on it way? I don't know any more. I am losing my mind. I am always trying to reach somewhere, trying to do something in my life, try to make it at-least a bit meaningful but every time, I just fail.... I still don't know what success means. Every time I just keep on failing as if its never going to end. Its totally like a process now. No matter what I do, it will fail. Its like written somewhere along the path of my life that this is a failure. I am unable to even take a different road. I just don't know what's next. Its so painful. Sometimes I wonder, if this life is just a joke for someone else to enjoy, watching me being a failure...