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Angelus12
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So, it's 3:45 and like everyone else in the world that typed "I am lonely" into google, I've found this place. Where to begin. I've been lonely all my life. I've had close friends but I've always felt like I was alone. I have friends that are willing to do anything for me, and I think that's why I chose them as my friends, because I thought having friends that loyal would make me feel loved and important...but it doesn't. Freshman year in college I was ready to kill myself and then I met a girl. She changed my life and we dated for two years. We broke up a week ago because she told me that she needed to become more independent and learn to lover herself more before she could be with me. Did I believe her? No. Needless to say, I saw her car at my former best friends house tonight. I say former because I've also found out that he's slept with her in the last week and a half since we broke up. How do I know? She called me crying and told me. Screwed up? Yeah. So, here I am...3:45am...drinking...and wishing I never met her because at least two years ago I was ready to go away. I'm not ready now. I had a taste of life and I liked it. I'm lonely, upset, depressed, and what's worse: Everyone just says to get over her and move on. But I can't. I feel helpless and alone again, just as I did two years ago before I met her...I search "I am lonely" on google hoping to find some quick solution to all the problems in my life as though something as simple as this would solve everything. And I post on here...why? Maybe I just don't know what else to do. Maybe I'm sick of everything and wish I had someone to talk to that could give me an unbiased opinion about things. I don't know where to go from here.
Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of honeysuckle
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here"
Anything at all to say? Share it.
Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of honeysuckle
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here"
Anything at all to say? Share it.