BlueArtist
Well-known member
Now this has probably come up a lot here seeing that this is a place for likeminded people. Sorry if this is a very lengthy read.
A bit more about myself: I'll say that I fall in a low- to mid income profession, and it is extremely difficult to find decent, well paying work due to the current economic and political landscape of the country, even with my university education. I can't afford my own place anymore since I lost my job 4 years ago and had to sell my home and since then it was just surviving from day to day renting a room in someone else's house.
My problem:I've been single my entire life, not for a lack of trying though. My family were never rich but we survived and had food on the table, but it seemed that this were always held against me when I tried to get into a relationship with someone I liked.
When I ask someone out stuff such as, and this was actually said to me: "I would rather like a much older guy, who can buy me a convertible" or "I met someone else, he have 3 houses and is driving a Porsche"
Over the years this have become a serious problem for me, at least I see it as a problem, my self esteem to a beating to a point that there aren't much left of it. Whenever I meet someone I like, we go out a few times then they just disappear without a word. I've began showing problems of depression the last 3 years 4 months ago it went into a full-blown state of depression that friends sent me to a Psychiatrist.
I've always received compliments from people, mostly women that they think I'm a great guy, good looking bla bla bla! You get the drift. But the moment I tend to get serious about someone I like, I get brushed off within a heartbeat.
I have come at a stage that I'm the only one left in my friend circles that is single, heck my friends don't even have single friends other than me that they can introduce me to.
And finally I thought that this was all over and have finally met the one woman that didn't care about how much I earn, what job I have or where I live. But in the end she did the same when I became serious about more than just being friends and again like all the rest she began ignoring me. I'm tired and maybe I should just accept that I have to prepare myself for another 36 years by myself, I'm seriously doubting myself and think that maybe there is something wrong with me.
A bit more about myself: I'll say that I fall in a low- to mid income profession, and it is extremely difficult to find decent, well paying work due to the current economic and political landscape of the country, even with my university education. I can't afford my own place anymore since I lost my job 4 years ago and had to sell my home and since then it was just surviving from day to day renting a room in someone else's house.
My problem:I've been single my entire life, not for a lack of trying though. My family were never rich but we survived and had food on the table, but it seemed that this were always held against me when I tried to get into a relationship with someone I liked.
When I ask someone out stuff such as, and this was actually said to me: "I would rather like a much older guy, who can buy me a convertible" or "I met someone else, he have 3 houses and is driving a Porsche"
Over the years this have become a serious problem for me, at least I see it as a problem, my self esteem to a beating to a point that there aren't much left of it. Whenever I meet someone I like, we go out a few times then they just disappear without a word. I've began showing problems of depression the last 3 years 4 months ago it went into a full-blown state of depression that friends sent me to a Psychiatrist.
I've always received compliments from people, mostly women that they think I'm a great guy, good looking bla bla bla! You get the drift. But the moment I tend to get serious about someone I like, I get brushed off within a heartbeat.
I have come at a stage that I'm the only one left in my friend circles that is single, heck my friends don't even have single friends other than me that they can introduce me to.
And finally I thought that this was all over and have finally met the one woman that didn't care about how much I earn, what job I have or where I live. But in the end she did the same when I became serious about more than just being friends and again like all the rest she began ignoring me. I'm tired and maybe I should just accept that I have to prepare myself for another 36 years by myself, I'm seriously doubting myself and think that maybe there is something wrong with me.