Hello, I am a 32 yr. old woman. I have no friends and no "mate" however i do have a triflen childs father. I have been lonely for the vast majority of my life. The rest of the time I was to young to remember. I grew up in a very loving and supportive family. My mother worked hard to make sure that my brother and i had everything we needed and even most of what we wanted. My extended family were awesome as well. But somewhere around puberty I became very lonely and depressed. By my senior year in high school I had tried to commit suicide at least 3 times. After high school I was hopitalized 2 times for other suicide attempts. I got to the point where I stopped trying because I couldn't seem to get that right. I do believe that the deep depression I was in had everything to do with it. At the age of 26 I finally got my first boyfriend, but he was just using me for sex and I knew it, but I was so tired of being alone that I just dealt with it until he evenually left methat lead to me having a one night stand and i got pregnant and the deepest depression I've known set in. I've not had a boyfriend since. and as far as female friends I used to think i had them, but they came and went with what i could and could not give them. So here I am with a 3 yr old child, alone, depressed and desperate. I used to have hope that i would have a normal healthy relationship. But life has failed me. I never get to see my child because I work so much to try to support her that Im either at work, she is with her grandmother or i am sleep. I just cannot seem to catch a break. But the suicide attempts stopped a long while back because I will not do that to my child, but now I just feel even worse because I want to be able to give my child a better life then what I have. This dead end job doesn't help, neither does the cost of living. If anyone thinks they can help, please do.