Box'O'Chocolates
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So recently (around 6 months ago) I got out of a relationship where I could offer nothing more to keep my partner happy, the more we talked about things, the more apparent the staleness of our relationship became and thus we decided to call it a day.
I feel however that this split was my own fault seeing as I was the one who could not do much cause of either money constraints or the fact we were in a long distance relationship, needless to say our relationship just moved sideways.
Anyways it has dawned upon me that no matter how stale our relationship was we depended on each other for the company, and while the love between us dwindled to nothingness, we were still very very good friends until we called it off, now I cannot get in-touch with them and i am worried about them, this is where the Addictive Relationship thing starts you see.
Because we depended upon each other for company so much we/I don't have anyone who I can talk to or hangout with, and I am finding it hard to actually drag myself out of this rut I appear to be in, I don't know how to make friends or approach people anymore, and I am bland, as in I don't believe I have any redeeming features they would help me stand out and make friends.
Currently I get this empty feeling in my gut, unfortunately it mirrors the lonelyness I am currently experiencing and it only started to happen now I am not in contact with my ex-partner, I don't want to go out either but for some reason I keep finding myself looking over at a bottle of vodka I have on my desk that is still unopened after a year.
Now I realize that if you have read through this mess of confusion, backtracking lack of self-worth and stuff than you are most likely thinking I am an idiot or fool who is talking nonsense, but to me it makes perfect sense, I may not be the best at putting my feelings into words, and I may not be the best at explaining my feelings, but this is the only way I can think of to express how depressed and lonely I am.
Sorry for bothering you with a whine thread.
/end post by the most pathetic person you are ever likely to know.
ps. this is not an attention seeking thread I just have no one else to talk to.
pps. yes I am way too self conscious about what people think of me.
ppps. I know I am the only person who can get myself out of this hole I am in.
pppps. thankyou for taking the time to read this.
I feel however that this split was my own fault seeing as I was the one who could not do much cause of either money constraints or the fact we were in a long distance relationship, needless to say our relationship just moved sideways.
Anyways it has dawned upon me that no matter how stale our relationship was we depended on each other for the company, and while the love between us dwindled to nothingness, we were still very very good friends until we called it off, now I cannot get in-touch with them and i am worried about them, this is where the Addictive Relationship thing starts you see.
Because we depended upon each other for company so much we/I don't have anyone who I can talk to or hangout with, and I am finding it hard to actually drag myself out of this rut I appear to be in, I don't know how to make friends or approach people anymore, and I am bland, as in I don't believe I have any redeeming features they would help me stand out and make friends.
Currently I get this empty feeling in my gut, unfortunately it mirrors the lonelyness I am currently experiencing and it only started to happen now I am not in contact with my ex-partner, I don't want to go out either but for some reason I keep finding myself looking over at a bottle of vodka I have on my desk that is still unopened after a year.
Now I realize that if you have read through this mess of confusion, backtracking lack of self-worth and stuff than you are most likely thinking I am an idiot or fool who is talking nonsense, but to me it makes perfect sense, I may not be the best at putting my feelings into words, and I may not be the best at explaining my feelings, but this is the only way I can think of to express how depressed and lonely I am.
Sorry for bothering you with a whine thread.
/end post by the most pathetic person you are ever likely to know.
ps. this is not an attention seeking thread I just have no one else to talk to.
pps. yes I am way too self conscious about what people think of me.
ppps. I know I am the only person who can get myself out of this hole I am in.
pppps. thankyou for taking the time to read this.