Fvantom said:
This is something I just realized about myself and its been killing me, everytime I see anyone on facebook or anywhere, with their really good friends or just generally being happy, I get really depressed because I know I dont have that =[ I realized that Ive been feeding off other peoples misery, not for some sick pleasure but out of pure desperation, its not that I enjoy seeing people being unhappy, its just the only thing that keeps my sadness from consuming me. Am I a bad person for that?
No Fvantom, you are not bad, but you havn't come out of the conditioning that society has put in - namely, always comparing. We are jealous, we compare. I agree facebook sucks, but only because people have made use of internet to do more idiotic things. What was supposed to be a boon has become a curse as more people feel lonely. People show off thier mediocre fortune, but they are OK about it. While some others are concerned about real freindships. Who do you want to be??
But let be tell you, Fvantom, there are lots of people who have 'better' things than me, and will perhaps keep having; some have worked for it and so deserve it, some havn't worked for it and yet have it. Anyhow, if I always compare myself, measure myself according to them, than what am I left with but agony. Why don't you compare yourself with people less fortunate than you?? So don't compare... you are what you are.
Finding out people akin to you who suffer is quiet different to wanting people to suffer because you are jealous on thier fortune - for the former is sympathy, the latter is sadism. Nor are people really 'that' happy as they show off. Trust me, you'd consider yourself unfortunate if you stood in the shoes of most people on facebook. Everybody is limited and miserable in thier self-images, some better or worst than others.
Look at yourself, ask yourself, have you ever been sincere on anything?? It's your choice how you want to look at it. If you seriously need serious friends, facebook is not the way I'd say (though it can help in certain areas). You need to stop comparing.
We are there for you. Take care.
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The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration.
* Pearl S. Buc