thalassa
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Anyone else have this issue?........
I am quite sick of this really: the moments when I can't bear to look at someone or speak a word or hastily do something to get out of the situation **because of severe social anxiety!!!** - I'm perceived as arrogant.
Recent examples (and I don't even go out that much!):
* Zebra crossing (these make me feel so awkward and I can't stand that interaction even with people in vehicles), I didn't want a car to stop for me but they did, I just quickly cross over and have a mean female scream "THANKS!! YOU'RE WELCOME" from her window...
* Going into a shop while people we're going out (again females), getting a very bitter and sarcastic "Thanks!! You're Welcome!!" while these people were together, jeez - is that their biggest problem of the day!? I was really tense, there were too many people around and didn't want another 'interaction'.
* At the checkout, having to pay for something and barely mumbling something (just wanted to hand over money). They had asked if I spoke some languages but I couldn't answer and they were gossiping as I left.
It seems as if you're are either bubbly (real or faked) or arrogant in this horrible society. There is nothing else. I couldn't possibly be in bits in those situations, a crumbling mess of a person, no!
Even someone I used to know (who literally faked a 1 year friendship with me) screamed at one point (towards the end when she was being violent and showing her true nature) saying I was an arrogant *****... exactly at the moment I was completely tense and terrified.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the hell is wrong here? Do other people have this happen to them or do I seem to just look arrogant when I feel so small? By the way I do not fake or wear a mask, to me I feel like my face looks unhappy, lonely and insecure.
It's the last thing you need when you are all alone, and haven't seen anyone in days, to get mean remarks from total strangers. It makes me even more alienated from everything and everyone that is in Western society!
I am quite sick of this really: the moments when I can't bear to look at someone or speak a word or hastily do something to get out of the situation **because of severe social anxiety!!!** - I'm perceived as arrogant.
Recent examples (and I don't even go out that much!):
* Zebra crossing (these make me feel so awkward and I can't stand that interaction even with people in vehicles), I didn't want a car to stop for me but they did, I just quickly cross over and have a mean female scream "THANKS!! YOU'RE WELCOME" from her window...
* Going into a shop while people we're going out (again females), getting a very bitter and sarcastic "Thanks!! You're Welcome!!" while these people were together, jeez - is that their biggest problem of the day!? I was really tense, there were too many people around and didn't want another 'interaction'.
* At the checkout, having to pay for something and barely mumbling something (just wanted to hand over money). They had asked if I spoke some languages but I couldn't answer and they were gossiping as I left.
It seems as if you're are either bubbly (real or faked) or arrogant in this horrible society. There is nothing else. I couldn't possibly be in bits in those situations, a crumbling mess of a person, no!
Even someone I used to know (who literally faked a 1 year friendship with me) screamed at one point (towards the end when she was being violent and showing her true nature) saying I was an arrogant *****... exactly at the moment I was completely tense and terrified.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the hell is wrong here? Do other people have this happen to them or do I seem to just look arrogant when I feel so small? By the way I do not fake or wear a mask, to me I feel like my face looks unhappy, lonely and insecure.
It's the last thing you need when you are all alone, and haven't seen anyone in days, to get mean remarks from total strangers. It makes me even more alienated from everything and everyone that is in Western society!