I Always think I should be doing something with all the time I spend alone. I have for many years tired to become a better person. Always believing that becoming the man I have always pictured myself as would make a different to the state of loneliness I am in. However it always leaves me tired, mentally and physically. To the point were I no longer feel like doing anything. I feel as if it is a good thing, but it is starting to affect my sanity. I never feel I have done enough, or am enough. Does anyone feel this way? Does making yourself a better person really help in the end?