I play video games to escape from real life. When I play video games, I feel like I am living in that world. Particularly two video games. I was playing one of them and I completed this level, and there was this girl, Christina, and at the end, we had to go our separate ways. This broke my heart. Some of you may say that it is pathetic that I feel emotions for someone who does not exist, but it's the same for my dream world. Both in video games and my dreams, they're real to me. I wish someone would give me a chance in real life. No one ever does. Maybe I do not deserve another chance because I didn't take the ones in the past, or messed them up. I know not why I have no been given another chance. I do not want to feel this way anymore. It is slowly hollowing my once big and warming heart. It is a waste if there is no one to share it with. I do not want to feel this sadness inside anymore. My attempts at having a real life, having friend, meeting women, have all failed. Some of you may say that I am young and still have many years to my advantage, and you are correct, but I feel as if I've lived a lifetime at moments. I feel as if I have missed out on many parts of life. I do not like being alone, I do not enjoy sitting in my quiet lonely room all day. Even though I've been working all day the past few weeks I still feel this sadness. I have been trying to mask my feelings with work, schooling, video games, cycling, nothing works. I am running out of options. My heart has been fractured, and it continues to destabilized with every coming day. I wish someone would give me a chance to help me mend it before it shatters into nothing, because you cannot fix what no longer exists.
Can't escape the sadness
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evanescencefan91
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*hugs knight* no way man that's not pathetic
remember Areith from FFVII *tear* it hurts to think about also because I had leveled her up so much D;
that's what I love about final fantasy and square enix games the story and characters are so engaging, you really connect with the game and that makes the games great
I have spent many a lonley weekends and new years alone in the dark killing zombies and saving imaginary worlds
it sustaned me for a while
it's hard making friends and interacting with people is difficult even more so because people are unpredicatale
reminds of the one big bang episode when sheldon tries to create an algorithym for making friends, unfortunatly you can't make an algorithym for making friends
I've created a whole other world in my head with characters plot twists and awesome soundtracks all for comfort and entertainment
it's good that you have hobbies I need to get more into running, have you tried meetup or joining a cycling club?
hey you're strong man you can get through this and you'll come out stronger and more badass when you reach the other side
*hugs*
remember Areith from FFVII *tear* it hurts to think about also because I had leveled her up so much D;
that's what I love about final fantasy and square enix games the story and characters are so engaging, you really connect with the game and that makes the games great
I have spent many a lonley weekends and new years alone in the dark killing zombies and saving imaginary worlds
it sustaned me for a while
it's hard making friends and interacting with people is difficult even more so because people are unpredicatale
reminds of the one big bang episode when sheldon tries to create an algorithym for making friends, unfortunatly you can't make an algorithym for making friends
I've created a whole other world in my head with characters plot twists and awesome soundtracks all for comfort and entertainment
it's good that you have hobbies I need to get more into running, have you tried meetup or joining a cycling club?
hey you're strong man you can get through this and you'll come out stronger and more badass when you reach the other side
*hugs*
evanescencefan91 said:
Absolutely, I was really really into FF VII I cried when she died.
Every where I go, I have another reality in head, I start thinking about the what ifs. Like one moment I'll be thinking of my mother dying and being sad, the next moment I'll be thinking of a girl talking to me and how that conversation would go, but then I realize that it's all in my head and that it's not real.
I did go with a bicycle group from meetup but they were all adults and we really didn't ride in a group, we all got separated.
You are going through a sad phase, and yes, you are young. You are not going to feel like this forever. It's going to pass but it just feels really bad right now. You should continue what you've been doing, putting yourself into your work, school, exercise, etc. and then find even more things to do....I think the cycling club is a good idea!
edgecrusher
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i get where your coming from knight. i have never cried over anything that has happened in a video game, but they are my escape too. i get very sucked into some the stories of the games i play and i feel something when things like that happen in the same way that i do for movies. both movies and video games are my escape from the world i feel like i dont have a place in.
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SophiaGrace
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I used to feel this way about books. Now I just read a lot to try and increase my knowledge thinking that someday it'll give me a head-start on life.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Escapism
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Ladysphinx
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Knight, this seems simple but I felt so sad reading your post, cause I know the feeling. I wish this for no one. I don't know what to say to make you feel better but I do understand. I use to cry while writting fictional story when they got hurt. I understand carring your self to a dream world just to escape the hurt of reallity. I know the feeling of patheticness, you are not alone. Seeing other's hurt the why I do breaks my heart cause though you don't fit this is what makes you special. You are not the same as the other douchbags who only care about themselfs and being the next big thing.
Nyx
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Knight, I think I know how you feel. So often reality does nothing to relieve the emptiness and sadness I feel within so, to escape from this world, I turn to my books or watch a movie or play a game and, for that short bit of time, I'm part of that world and I don't have to be me... I get very absorbed in the stories and I feel for all the characters as if they're real people. Regardless of the content of the book/movie/game, the time spent in that fictional world improves my mood for a little while... but, unfortunately, it doesn't last long.
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Hey Knight, I gotta say we share a lot in common. First of all don't feel bad about having emotions PERIOD. Even if it is for someone who doesn't exist. I've balled my eyes out so much for the people I dream about that when I wake up my pillow is soaked in tears. So don't feel bad about escaping reality through video games and dreams. For me video games are not much of a problem, but dreaming is a biggy.
I'm in high school and currently we're on a winter break and most of this time I've been sleeping. Beginning of the break I couldn't sleep, I had no time to, I was busy spending the holiday with my family that really helped me not sleep. But the family here at home aren't so helpful. I go to sleep at around 3am every day because I'm playing video games. I usually do this at night because I don't want to be pestered by my family. Then I sleep maybe until 5 to 7 o clock in the night. I'm "awake" but I like to dream. Helps me escape and it feels nice. But dreams don't last forever and when I wake up to the harsh cruel world and the reality of the situation at my home it breaks me down a little bit everytime. Which is not good. I can't break my bad habit of sleeping so badly. I'm addicted to sleeping. Yeah sounds weird right? But true I want to sleep all the time and it's so bad for me. Not just mentally but physically too. I heard that we could develop Parkinson's disease when we're older from sleeping to much or just sitting around doing nothing. And that scares me. Scares the hell out of me. You and I are stuck in a loneliness that spans several years plus we deal with our stress by sleeping and playing video games. Man I'm with you. I don't want this. I want a real life. I want to stop sleeping and playing so many **** video games all the time. I'll support you if you want to change but I need support too. Today I'm going to make myself do something that takes up my time so I don't sleep during the day.
And I could really use some suggestions. If I think of any I'll let you know.
Oh and by the way. Love the name.
grainofrice24
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Knight...or KnYght
Escaping reality seems to be a vicious circle (at least the way I see it). Do we escape reality because reality sucks? Or does reality suck because we spend so much time escaping it? It's just a vicious circle. We should probably stop. I'm guilty of it too mind you. It seems so ingrained in our psyche though (at least for me it is). So many things I was raised on I find myself quitting in my twenties. I was raised on fast food, heavy metal, graphic violence and hardcore pornography. I pretty much only have my graphically violent video games these days.
On the other hand..."all work and no play" right?
The western world was
at war in the 40's
workin hard in the 50's
groovy in the 60's
high as a kite in the 70's
addicted in the 80's
trying to quit in the 90's
and hit rock bottom/sobered up and realized how lame it is in the last 10 years.
Bullshit wars, economy crapping out, unemployment, reality TV, club music, men wearing scarves as a fashion statement, pre-faded jeans, and everything all-at-once just stopped being funny. I guess my point is...you may not agree with wanting to escape reality...but hopefully you understand why.
BTW happy ******* new year!
Escaping reality seems to be a vicious circle (at least the way I see it). Do we escape reality because reality sucks? Or does reality suck because we spend so much time escaping it? It's just a vicious circle. We should probably stop. I'm guilty of it too mind you. It seems so ingrained in our psyche though (at least for me it is). So many things I was raised on I find myself quitting in my twenties. I was raised on fast food, heavy metal, graphic violence and hardcore pornography. I pretty much only have my graphically violent video games these days.
On the other hand..."all work and no play" right?
The western world was
at war in the 40's
workin hard in the 50's
groovy in the 60's
high as a kite in the 70's
addicted in the 80's
trying to quit in the 90's
and hit rock bottom/sobered up and realized how lame it is in the last 10 years.
Bullshit wars, economy crapping out, unemployment, reality TV, club music, men wearing scarves as a fashion statement, pre-faded jeans, and everything all-at-once just stopped being funny. I guess my point is...you may not agree with wanting to escape reality...but hopefully you understand why.
BTW happy ******* new year!
sunny
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sorry, but i find video games pretty depressing... why won't you invest all that time you spend in front of a screen in something more useful?
On the subject of attachment to fictional characters, I don't find anything wrong with that. Well, unless it's taken to a life-sized body pillow levels and marriage of the said pillow. Heh. Still! Books, films and games all carry characters, fleshed out well enough as a person and such, they are the subject of a viewer's (or reader's) emotional investment, usually the audience surrogate and whatnot. Me, I'm an escapist at heart. Hell, who wouldn't want to be the hero who saves the kingdom, universe or multiverse from the demon king, alien menace or dark horde of the week and end up getting the girl in the end? It's completely understandable why one might find these past-times more enjoyable than the real world where you are faced with mundane days filled with the tedium of work and school, and possibly an unrewarding string of attempts at finding someone in this world who understands and loves you. One of my favourite games is Harvest Moon, even today. Guess a part of me longs for a small community nestled in the countryside, surrounded by friendly neighbours and animals, but I make the distinction between game worlds and the real world. I keep on going and trying in the real world, and when it all becomes a bit too much to chew, take a pause in fictionland and enjoy that for a while, and after I've loaded up my mental batteries, so to speak, it's back in the fray. If even for a day.
I don't suppose that my ramblings carry any great motivational boost that makes the crowd cheer like in the movies...Frankly, I suck at dealing with people, and pep talks and motivational speeches is where I'm least qualified.
All in all, I guess what I'm saying is, you musn't just lie down and let yourself die. Find a goal in the real world, however small, to strive towards it. As you achieve it, you feel better about yourself and your achievements in the real world. Might not be slaying monsters and saving damsels, but this one-day-atta-time routine keeps me going on, adversity and all.
I don't suppose that my ramblings carry any great motivational boost that makes the crowd cheer like in the movies...Frankly, I suck at dealing with people, and pep talks and motivational speeches is where I'm least qualified.
All in all, I guess what I'm saying is, you musn't just lie down and let yourself die. Find a goal in the real world, however small, to strive towards it. As you achieve it, you feel better about yourself and your achievements in the real world. Might not be slaying monsters and saving damsels, but this one-day-atta-time routine keeps me going on, adversity and all.
