ippi said:
Anyways, you said you were depresessed? How did you overcome it? I usually smoke a joint once in a while to stay calm and to feel more careless about negative stuff.
Sorry I missed this ippi!
When I say I "was" depressed, I mean I am no longer at the lowest point in my life emotionally anymore. I still struggle with sadness, loneliness, alienation, confusion over who I really am, past demons, low self esteem and self worth issues daily, but its not so bad that I feel suicidal anymore, or that it causes dysfunction in my life. Like I can socialize, make plans for the future, find a way to motivate myself to do something somehow now, as opposed to a time when I just couldn't do anything right.
I think that's a good way to go actually, and that's what helped me get out of it. I stopped aiming for happy, successful or anything that seemed like a big, unreachable goal, and rather just tried to be "not" horribly depressed. While I was still being antisocial, I started engaging in enjoyable hobbies which gave me something small to look forward to everyday. Then I forced myself to do something that made me uncomfortable, but I knew would be beneficial to what I was trying to achieve. Like force myself to eat alone in restaurants, go to the cinema alone etc.
Eventually, I started feeling better. I really think its a good idea to start small. Oh and working out helped with my moods loads. Started off with 5 minutes, and after a couple of months, I was able to run for 30 minutes everyday and do the P90X (at first I couldn't even handle 1 minute of jumping jacks)
That's how I did it anyway
. If you ever want to talk more about it, please let me know. I'm more than happy to help