since i was a child i was lonely i did have friends in school but they were only just welcome me when they see me and stuff but not a true friend everybody had there own circle of friends i was being bullied and called a nerd very much somedays i just ask my mother questions like why do i even exist i didnt really find a reason for my exisctence and now i am 16 i dont have many friends only like 1 or 2 real friends and i just can have anymore i never get used to people easly i always push away people from me for no reason and i cant even talk to girls or have a girlfriend which is i think is now making me very depressed every person in my age has a girl that she likes him i am not popular and i think my problem now is the reason of my childhood can someone please help me ?!