BoringGirl
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Lately I have been becoming more and more convinced that I just don't belong in society. I have never been adored by someone, never had anyone want me in their life. Every guy I date gets what they can get before I break down and leave out of sheer desperation for my own sanity (which, normally, by then is completely in tatters).
Am I the only person who has never experienced how it feels to be truly adored? I feel like my life is empty enough (professionally) without it spilling over into my personal life. Every day is getting harder and harder to want to wake up to. I work so much that I cannot see how I will ever get a chance to meet anyone, and even if I do, I don't see how I can trust anymore. Double edged sword or what......
My friends (all two of them) tell me that I will find someone, but their kind words of support are more and more often falling on deaf ears. I try to get out there, but I am ignored by all except the ones drugged up to their eyeballs and looking for, well, you know. And to be honest, I've even lost interest in that as it's always shallow and pointless.
I more and more often don't see why I am even alive. I'm just a blip on the surface of a world that does not want me. And to be honest, the only upside is that I am no longer surprised when I find that once again I have hit a brick wall in that department.
Am I the only person who has never experienced how it feels to be truly adored? I feel like my life is empty enough (professionally) without it spilling over into my personal life. Every day is getting harder and harder to want to wake up to. I work so much that I cannot see how I will ever get a chance to meet anyone, and even if I do, I don't see how I can trust anymore. Double edged sword or what......
My friends (all two of them) tell me that I will find someone, but their kind words of support are more and more often falling on deaf ears. I try to get out there, but I am ignored by all except the ones drugged up to their eyeballs and looking for, well, you know. And to be honest, I've even lost interest in that as it's always shallow and pointless.
I more and more often don't see why I am even alive. I'm just a blip on the surface of a world that does not want me. And to be honest, the only upside is that I am no longer surprised when I find that once again I have hit a brick wall in that department.