depressed with no one to talk to :(

[Rent412]

I'm so depressed. I want to go to the doctor but I have no health insurance. I hate life. I wish I had someone to talk to, that actually cared. I feel like no one truly cares about me. I have no female friends and all my male friends do is hit on me. Sometimes I wish I were ugly, so I could talk to someone about my problems without them saying "let me come over and take you out." I just hate people in general at this point. I feel like I'm never going to click with anyone and make a true friend in my whole life. I have a boyfriend of almost 5 years and he makes me miserable. He's not the same man I fell in love with, but now I've fallen and I don't know how to get out. I'm always around him, but I feel SO painfully alone. I don't want to deal with this anymore ;(

 

[SilentThinker]

*Hugs

Here my msn address
[email protected]

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I'm sorry that you're going through that.
You also try contacting your local mental health department.
I'm not sure what country you live in but in the USA there's
local county mental health departments. You probably might
not even have to pay. You can probably talk to a doctor or
go into group therapy. There's all kinds of programs avaliable.
Please don't be ashame of reaching out for help.

You might also try veriouse support group in your area.
Maybe Alan-on or Co-DA. These are 12 steps base programs.
But mainly men and women that's in a bad or empty relationship
and having a hard time breaking away. As you decibe it...your
partner is not the same person you met and being around him
makes you feel bad. I pretty much felt the same way being
around my ex-gf...but I had a hard time breaking away.
i didn't understand co-dependency at the time. You might
also meet alot of women that's been in your shoes and had
found a way out..if you have trouble talking to men....Just
talk or reach out to the women one on one. Face to Face.
Even if you just went to these meetings...you can talk about
whatever problems you're having, It would still be benificial for you.
You can let it all out and don't have to carry it inside of you anymore.
The poeple in there are really loving, caring, and compasionate people.

Plus getting out of isolation..or not feeling like you're alone
anymore helps.

Or maybe you can try PMing Naleena, Eve, CG , Samba or
other women on this site.

 

[SophiaGrace]

I'm so depressed. I want to go to the doctor but I have no health insurance. I hate life. I wish I had someone to talk to, that actually cared. I feel like no one truly cares about me. I have no female friends and all my male friends do is hit on me. Sometimes I wish I were ugly, so I could talk to someone about my problems without them saying "let me come over and take you out." I just hate people in general at this point. I feel like I'm never going to click with anyone and make a true friend in my whole life. I have a boyfriend of almost 5 years and he makes me miserable. He's not the same man I fell in love with, but now I've fallen and I don't know how to get out. I'm always around him, but I feel SO painfully alone. I don't want to deal with this anymore ;(

Try psychcentral.com...i've found it to be a wonderful resource

 

[LonelyDragon]

Your relationship sounds very much like mine. She's turned cold and distant on good days and hurtful on the others. All I know is that you and I both need to get our legs under us and find the strength to get out. Until we do I don't feel anything will get any better.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Your relationship sounds very much like mine. She's turned cold and distant on good days and hurtful on the others. All I know is that you and I both need to get our legs under us and find the strength to get out. Until we do I don't feel anything will get any better.

I remember sitting in my own place..after I got my own place to live.
I kicked her out..after 6 months after the honeysuckle hit the fan
she had no place to go. Broke into my place or pass out drunk
in the front yard.
She forced her way back into my life....Went way out of her god
**** way to break up a relationship i was having with someone
else. Someone that cared about me. Mannipulated everyone and
dragged everybody's emotions through the freaken mud.
Begged me to never leave her and all kinds of suiecide threats.
I felt so god **** bad and guilty.

Things got better for a little while...then off she goes again.
i was so tired from all the chaso and insanity.

I remember crying my eyes out trying to force myself to pack
all of my belongings. I was so tired and couldn't think straight
i didn't have the strenght to pack.

She is a stone cold freaken ***** to me to this day
Obviously that crap keeps her in denile of all the time wreckage she cuased. Nothing i did was good enough...

Now I'm suppost to pray for her to be happy ?
fresia that honeysuckle. Like I'm suppost to walk the straight and narrow
while she playing holier than thou crap infront of everybody.
Life is just so fucken grand..lets fucken hold hands and sing fucken cumbayaa.

Looking good on the outside and all messed up on the inside.

 

[LonelyDragon]

Your relationship sounds very much like mine. She's turned cold and distant on good days and hurtful on the others. All I know is that you and I both need to get our legs under us and find the strength to get out. Until we do I don't feel anything will get any better.

I remember sitting in my own place..after I got my own place to live.
I kicked her out..after 6 months after the honeysuckle hit the fan
she had no place to go. Broke into my place or pass out drunk
in the front yard.
She forced her way back into my life....Went way out of her god
**** way to break up a relationship i was having with someone
else. Someone that cared about me. Mannipulated everyone and
dragged everybody's emotions through the freaken mud.
Begged me to never leave her and all kinds of suiecide threats.
I felt so god **** bad and guilty.

Things got better for a little while...then off she goes again.
i was so tired from all the chaso and insanity.

I remember crying my eyes out trying to force myself to pack
all of my belongings. I was so tired and couldn't think straight
i didn't have the strenght to pack.

She is a stone cold freaken ***** to me to this day
Obviously that crap keeps her in denile of all the time wreckage she cuased. Nothing i did was good enough...

Now I'm suppost to pray for her to be happy ?
fresia that honeysuckle. Like I'm suppost to walk the straight and narrow
while she playing holier than thou crap infront of everybody.
Life is just so fucken grand..lets fucken hold hands and sing fucken cumbayaa.

Looking good on the outside and all messed up on the inside.

I'm sorry.

 

[Hope_Reigns]

Things with my man are messed up right now as well. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone, actually had that 'the one' feeling for the first time ever, and still have it. Things are amazing at times and he's everything I could ever want..but other times he turns opposite the man I love.. acts like I'm nothing to him and I can't do anything right.. I try and talk through problems, but he just tells me not to start again, and asks why I can't just relax and have fun. I feel lonely as hell and utterly worthless at these times, (which can go on for months or longer) I want to wait, and be loyal to my love and help him get through what he needs to..but it hurts non stop, has killed my self esteem and strength, which just makes more problems for him to grasp on to. I need love and affection and caring but I can't just walk away from the truest love I've ever known in my life. *is just so utterly lost and confused*

 

[Bella]

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[Galinchi]

Here is my e-mail address - [email protected] ,feel free to write whatever you want It will be pleasure to be friends with you !

 

[Twingle]

There seems to be a lot of gals with no gal friends around here. Out there. Everywhere. Yet, none of us can seem to find each other.

How's that for life for ya.

I'm on pretty much all night usually (unless for some reason I actually get sleepy before 4 am lol) .. give me a shout on PM if you like. I'd post my e-mail for you, but I'm not all about posting that out in the open for spam bots to gather and infiltrate lol.

 

[Ithought]

Don't be around him!
That is what I am good with cutting ex-s.
Because I am not brave enough to deal with them after breaking up.
I am not a close friend of you.
Sometimes I will don’t understand you because we don’t have common things.
But when you need someone to listen I will be there for you.

Love and Hugs, hope you don't need to cry

 

[want-to-die]

Hi..

I am pleading for someone
to Call the Police as you
may see It on a new thread
somewhere..

 

[SilentThinker]

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Free to add me..Up and ready for msn chat.