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cubatown88
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hey guys, I am new but I thought that I should share a little while I'm here. I been suffering from depression since I was 11 at first I thought that I was just going through a faze in my life, but then I started to get really sick by this I mean crying in the bathroom for no reason and basically isolating myself from the rest of the world. all I could remember was that I was missing a big chunk out of my life and I don't know where it is or how to get it back, I told a friend and she said I was crazy and she basically stop talking and playing with me from that point on I learned to live a double life I would be class clown at school and calm cool around my friends and family then I would cry like crazy and not get out of bed when I got home.
long story short I told my mother and asked her to give me medication she said no and when I asked why she simply stated that she won't have a crazy daughter in her house at this point I left it alone and in a couple of weeks I started to cut myself over and over again after two years I realized that I wasn't the enemy this sickness was and without knowing it I slowly but surely have been isolating myself from everyone. in my mind I think that they think I'm crazy which by the way I wouldn't disagree, I have no real friends, no real life and I spend 99.9% of my days in my room with no idea how to get out into the world which sucks because I feel like I am a great person, but I just don't know how to communicate that to the rest of world.
long story short I told my mother and asked her to give me medication she said no and when I asked why she simply stated that she won't have a crazy daughter in her house at this point I left it alone and in a couple of weeks I started to cut myself over and over again after two years I realized that I wasn't the enemy this sickness was and without knowing it I slowly but surely have been isolating myself from everyone. in my mind I think that they think I'm crazy which by the way I wouldn't disagree, I have no real friends, no real life and I spend 99.9% of my days in my room with no idea how to get out into the world which sucks because I feel like I am a great person, but I just don't know how to communicate that to the rest of world.