Do You Believe In Match Made In Heaven?

[viviana]

i am still obsessing over this person i met this last summer. and since i think about him constantly. does anybody out there have had the mutual experience before, or just believe that maybe somewhere out there he is thinking about me too, or my obsession might have the power to make his thoughts sway in my direction, or maayybe....just maybe he thinks about me that..'s why i keep thinking about him for some reason. Hmmm

i already tried to sing "life goes on" song, by Leanne Rimes and it does not help.
i keep going back to listen to Mariah Carey songs about lost love. like the "Fourth of July" song.
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[Lonesome Crow]

i am still obsessing over this person i met this last summer. and since i think about him constantly. does anybody out there have had the mutual experience before, or just believe that maybe somewhere out there he is thinking about me too, or my obsession might have the power to make his thoughts sway in my direction, or maayybe....just maybe he thinks about me that..'s why i keep thinking about him for some reason. Hmmm

i already tried to sing "life goes on" song, by Leanne Rimes and it does not help.
i keep going back to listen to Mariah Carey songs about lost love. like the "Fourth of July" song.
[/font]HELP!

yeah..I get ya.
Been there and done that...
I tried everything under the sun...money, work, partying, god, other women.
I even tried to convience myself to hate her...
Yes, life went on without her but I always had a feeling something
was missing out of my life or it was half empty. And I sure as hell
couldn't speak about it to other women that came into my life.

Sometimes I feel like I'm living a fucken lie without her.
Life is just one big fucken lie and whatever the hell honeysuckle I make up
to cover up the truth that I love her...
It's like a secret I had to keep to myself. Sometimes
I'll write about her in my journal so that I can cope and not have
her on my mind all the time...and all hell would break lose if people
gose through my diary or journal. Then that relationship gets all
been out of shape...then I feel even more retarded and guilty.

I'll even talk to other people about it...And it just hurts me more.
I feel even more angery when people tell me I should stop loving
her...life gose on and all that good honeysuckle. Or there's something wrong
with me, that I might be inmature, have relationship problems, i don't love myself
or some crazy honeysuckle...I get even more fuastrated and angery.
I'll even go through stages of isolations or anti social.
I wish not to be tough by anyone except her...and it cuases distant between other relationships
in my life...but I can't tell people how I really feel.

The **** shrink even told me " don't you have somethings else
you want to do in life beside loving her?"...
That's so fucken retarded...
Just another way of telling me I should stop loving her and that I'm
messed up in the head for loving her.

I'll even do the oneday at a time , trying to staying the moment
so I wouldn't think about her...but she'll pop into my mind oneday
at a time too. I don't even have to carry a picture of her...
She roams my mind

I can't even bare to listen to our song...I'll freaken just break.

The only thing that resolved my anger, fuastrations, a lot of my depression or took away all my pains is that I'm able to tell her I love her and she tells me that she love me, today.

Well..if god is love. I love her and she loves me.
So when the fucken world tells me I can't love her...it's fucken retarded, confussing and backwards to me. So trying to live my life without her and trying other people's opionion
and idea to cope, make it fit or go on had pretty much drove my ass insane, nuratic and batty.
Err...I'm a fucken complicated person ..WTF?????

So it's been realitively simple and truthful. I love her very, very much and that's that.

 

[grundel70]

Well Viviana...

I can't speak for exactly what you are feeling or what you should do. I can only speak from my own experience.

For those that remember me, there was this woman I was totally obsessing over. (check some of my earlier posts). All I could do is think of her. I wrote tons of poems about her, bought her gifts, talked to her everyday, etc etc etc... How could life be worth living if she was not in it?

I understand what it is to put so much of yourself in the hope that the target of your affection feels the same about you. When it doesn't, it hurts. Bad. Now, when I am hurting now I don't try to cover it. I talk about it. I write it down. I make it known so that I can ride it through to its final resolution, whether it be happy or sad. The unfortunate thing is that life is full of both...unbound joy and happines and despairing sorrow and pain. What I have learned from my own experience is that you need both of these things. Life without happiness is crap. Why bother? At the same time if you never are sad, then you can never appreciate joy and love. It sucks that it works this way...at least for me...but I am starting to understand it better.

Viviana, this young man that is lucky enough to have your attention is going to do whatever it is he does, and he will feel the way he is supposed to feel. The only variable you can control is yourself. If it were me, I would not try to be someone that I think he would like, but instead try to be the best person I can be and let the rest fall into place.

I do believe in matches made in heaven. However, I also believe that often the person we think...or hope...it is is usually not it. I have observed that often it hits you out of the blue when you least expect it, by the most unexpected source. Since I personally believe that out there is the woman of my dreams, then I will find her when the time is right...not when I want to, but when god/the universe/Captain America/Mother Nature/ or whomever your higher power may be deems it to be the right time.

Oh, one last thing...

I noticed you said "my obsession might have the power to make his thoughts sway in my direction". Well, maybe it will. But I have discovered that when woman start to really become obsessive over me it really pushes me away. I start to feel uncomfortable and try to avoid those people. It has happened to me twice now over the past couple of months. One girl I had to completely stop talking to, because no matter what I did or say she just would not control her affection toward me. It was too overwhelming, especially at the time in my life it occured. So now I avoid her completely. I also know that I once obsessed over a young lady, and now I can see how I drove her away. Its funny how things work out that way...

I hope this helps!

PS...yes, that pic is me about 100 lbs ago

 

[Lonesome Crow]

hahahah..funny you should say that Grundel...

The day she came into my life, it was totally unexpected...She asked me out.
Then she came into my life again....totally unexpected again this time too.

There's no logic behind it. I couldn't even planed it.

I don't obessess over her..I know i just love her and it's been painful to live without her.

 

[loketron]

vivi theres no sense in dwelling in the past, though crow and grundel have put it into large scope of things. ill try to keep it short and sweet
ive sang that song too, hopeing and waiting, thinking someon will come back, but even though things seemed like a "match made in heaven" it may not be the same way on he other end, and for that reason you should walk away, go and find someone who loves you as much as you love them, and be happy
obsess over yourself and your own goals and the opposite sex will notice and be intrigued and want you and fall i love with you
good luck vivi:
love joetron face

and yes, i do believe in match made in heaven, but im not waiting around for it...i suggest the same for you....

 

[viviana]

thanks guys,
and Lonesome, yeah i talk to people even strangers who want to listen, to get it out of my chest.. oh even worse watch porn a couple, too many. it's not going

i kind of know the truth and what might be the best thing to do. i am just going through the stages of my ego defense mechanism. that would be denial, and bargaining.
i bargain with God that even if i don''t deserve it, please let me find that person and that will be the last i ask of him
and i question God love and authority, and i ask why i am forsaken. .

my manager told me not to do that, and all i have to do is ask..(she talks from experience) just wait and it will happen.

not to worry Grundel, i was not planning on stuckin him. i don't know if he has the feeling that i have, because that's the only way he would know to find me. i never gave him or ask for his phone number so he would not feel pressure coming from me. or feel my desperation or somthg. i know what you're thinking, but i already know how stupid it is to fall in love so fast, and so hard for someone you hardly even met. part of my hope is not at all to hear him say he loves me back when i say i love him for the longest time and have been missing him. the funny part, he said it to me before, i did not say it back because again i was scared of the possibility he might not have meant it, hmm drunk both of us.

so what i want the most is to find closure, and set myself free from the thoughts at once. if i could meet him i would express what i feel and let him know it's okay whatever he is feeling. that way i will know for sure whether i am wasting my time or not. it will be easier to let go then.

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right now i have talked too much about it
i am sick and tired. so sorry to say i am just gonna go and cry and then i don't know the rest.
i'll come next week or so

 

[grundel70]

"not to worry Grundel, i was not planning on stuckin him. i don't know if he has the feeling that i have, because that's the only way he would know to find me. i never gave him or ask for his phone number so he would not feel pressure coming from me. or feel my desperation or somthg. i know what you're thinking, but i already know how stupid it is to fall in love so fast, and so hard for someone you hardly even met. part of my hope is not at all to hear him say he loves me back when i say i love him for the longest time and have been missing him. the funny part, he said it to me before, i did not say it back because again i was scared of the possibility he might not have meant it, hmm drunk both of us. "


It is not stupid my dear! I have fallen in love with women that all they have done is smiled at me! Its my heart, I loose control of it alot. I have learned to deal with the hurt and heartbreak that comes, however. When you love someone, you love em. It is not stupid. You feel the way you feel. It is how we react and deal with how you feel that matters.

 

[Aedammair]

I don't really know. I really hope there was a match made for me in heaven. Otherwise I am just going crazy. I have had dreams that I think may mean something. Not claiming to be a prophet or anything. There are just some dreams that I have felt actually mean something. I wrote these down in a notebook and forgot about them. I just found it again. It is wierd. THere are a lot about "the girl that I loved". How convienent that I never saw her face and couldn't remember her name. All I know is she has brown hair. and She is beautiful. Feel like a kid saying all this but I really hope I am not acting superstitious. I can't believe that with the millions of people out there there isn't one for me.

 

[shells]

No, I don't believe in "match made in heaven". Then again, I'm not an idealist. All relationships take a ton of work, even if they may seem "perfect" at first.