to your self and other people when you act differently around different people?
I find myself doing that a lot and it bothers me. The person I am when I'm by myself doesn't match up with the person I am around other people. I mimic other people, go along with their ideas and agree or nod my head and shrug or something... A couple days ago I was outside a room waiting for it to be unlocked standing around with the people I play d&d with, when someone else I knew who thinks I am fairly normal, not because I outright lied to him at any point but because I had been mimicking him and so I seemed normal. So he walks up to me and asks what I'm doing tonight and I had to take a minute and think about this for a minute, the true answer was I'm playing d&d, what I would have said normally around him would have been, "o not much", but the people I play d&d with were right there so I couldn't say something like that because then it would have seemed like I was embarrassed of playing d&d, which I am.
And just yesterday someone said if they could describe me in one word it'd be "pushover" and you know what I did even then? Agreed with them! And it goes even deeper for me, because I have many odd quirks that I suppress around other people so I feel that not only am I leading them on to have a good opinion about me but also that I'm trying to portray a sense or normalcy that I know is a lie...
Does anyone know what I'm talking about and feel the same way?
I find myself doing that a lot and it bothers me. The person I am when I'm by myself doesn't match up with the person I am around other people. I mimic other people, go along with their ideas and agree or nod my head and shrug or something... A couple days ago I was outside a room waiting for it to be unlocked standing around with the people I play d&d with, when someone else I knew who thinks I am fairly normal, not because I outright lied to him at any point but because I had been mimicking him and so I seemed normal. So he walks up to me and asks what I'm doing tonight and I had to take a minute and think about this for a minute, the true answer was I'm playing d&d, what I would have said normally around him would have been, "o not much", but the people I play d&d with were right there so I couldn't say something like that because then it would have seemed like I was embarrassed of playing d&d, which I am.
And just yesterday someone said if they could describe me in one word it'd be "pushover" and you know what I did even then? Agreed with them! And it goes even deeper for me, because I have many odd quirks that I suppress around other people so I feel that not only am I leading them on to have a good opinion about me but also that I'm trying to portray a sense or normalcy that I know is a lie...
Does anyone know what I'm talking about and feel the same way?