I have no one else to talk to so keep all my thoughts in my head. I feel alone and know I love someone and basically there feelings are nearly mutal but its complicated. He works with his current partner, they have a holiday booked and i'm just being left behind, feeling alone and horrible. I don't think i'll ever be happy again with someone else and regret letting him go. My life of happiness is over already and i'm still only 20 :-(